Jealousy

Domalicious was discussing our cuckolding situation with one of her friends recently and the friend was having difficulty understanding how I could deal with jealousy.  Domalicious was unable to explain it to her, so she asked me to give it some thought and try to explain it.  I thought that it would be a good topic for a blog post.

I am not sure if I can express what goes on in my head and heart as a cuckold, but I will make an attempt here.

I think that I should begin by saying that, while I do experience jealousy when being cuckolded, it is generally a rather mild emotion.  Certainly not something that overwhelms me.

Perhaps more interesting is the fact that I do not necessarily find jealousy to be a negative emotion.  With a couple of exceptions the jealousy I have experienced has actually been a turn on for me.  I suppose that jealousy such as this is one of my "triggers" as a submissive.  I am not sure what the genesis of this "trigger" is, but I have had cuckold desires and fantasies since my early teens.  Perhaps I was born wired this way, or perhaps something I was exposed to started me down this path, I cannot say which.

As I said above the jealousy I experience is usually not an overwhelming emotion.  I believe that there a few things that keep the jealousy mild.

First is that I feel that Domalicious and I have a very strong marriage.  I know her love for me is very powerful, and I do not think that is going to change just because she has sex with another man.

Secondly, I have come to the realization that even if Domalicious falls in love with another man it does not mean that she will love me less.  Love is not a finite thing.  It is not like she must take a portion of love from me in order to give it to another man, or woman for that matter.

Third, a large part of my desire to be cuckolded is so that Domalicious can experience more pleasure in her life.  I wish her to enjoy sexual experiences that I am not equipped, in one way or another, to give her.  I wish for her to get the most joy and pleasure out of this life possible, I believe that she deserves it.  Jealousy just does not come into play with this part of the cuckolding experience.

Fourth, most of the men she has, or has considered, cuckolding me with offer something very different from what I give her.  Most have not been submissive.  They are not going to give themselves to her in the same way that I have.  They are not going to offer her the same love, devotion, service, etc that I give her.  With the non-submissive men I don't feel the same competitiveness that I have with the few other subs that she has considered.

Fifth, I believe that I am an emotional masochist.  I somehow get turned on by the jealousy and humiliation I experience as a cuckold.  I am not sure how or why I react in such a way to these experiences, but it is definitely a sexual and submissive trigger for me.  We are all different, perhaps I am more different than most, but somehow for me these emotions that are such negatives for most people turn me on and make me happy.

There have been a few times I have felt overwhelming jealousy.

Usually this has been when she was considering other subs.  In these cases it has generally been triggered by her comparing the other sub to me, and finding me lacking.  I do have an ego, and I am just a tiny bit competitive.  It was very difficult to deal with having another submissive please her more than I.  When this has happened I have fortunately just buckled down and tried harder to be more pleasing to her.  I try to remember that I should put her happiness first, and not allow my ego to rule me.  This is not as easy to put into practice as it is to put into words.

The one time I experienced overwhelming jealousy of a non-submissive man was when she developed very strong feelings very quickly for a dominant man.  She submitted to him very quickly, and was experiencing very powerful feelings for this man.  Things moved so quickly that I had a difficult time processing everything.  It took a little time for me to come to terms with the jealousy I experienced in this situation.  I had to spend a lot of time thinking about what I was feeling.  Domalicious and I also kept communicating, and she was very good about reassuring me that she loved me and that her feelings for me had not changed as she developed new feelings toward this man.  I also had some good talks with AlphaDomme at this time, and she helped me work through my negative feelings.

I do think that is a good idea to have someone who know you well that you can talk with when negative feelings come along in a cuckolding situation.  AlphaDomme has been a great listener and has give me terrific council during my journey.

I hope that this will perhaps help others to understand why I am able to enjoy the cuckolding experience so much.  The combination of my desire for my wife to be as happy as possible and my pleasure in the emotions I experience make it an absolutely wonderful experience for me.

Having fun!

We had a terrific time at our first San Diego Munch.  We met some great people.  It was so much fun to able to talk about our lives and our kinks with others who understand.  It was a fun and inclusive group.  I am excited about having another Munch soon.  Domalicious and I will talk it over and try to get one scheduled.

Things have been pretty crazy around here lately.  Domalicious is up to her eyeballs in men and she is loving it.  She has reconnected with some men from her past and connected with some new guys.  One of the new guys she has taken on as a sub.  I have been loving it as well, it makes me very happy to see her enjoying herself so much.

I had a talk with Domalicious today, a free talk, where I am allowed to speak about things without worrying about topping from the bottom or getting in trouble otherwise.  I told Domalicious that I have been feeling more like her sissy and that I wanted to move more in that direction as her sub.  It went well, she understood, and even took me shopping for panties today.  I got several new pairs of panties, very pretty and girly.  I'm so excited about it.  It was fun shopping for them she was pretty open about it.  She was asking what size I needed and if I liked this pair or that pair better.  I ended up getting an erection in the aisle as we were choosing them.

I also talked with her about shaving my nether regions again.  She had me stop shaving a while back, she knows I dislike having hair there.  I knew she was playing with and testing me.  She told me she was very pleased that I had not said anything about it, that I had just accepted it.  She also told me that I had earned a reward.  I don't know yet what the reward will be, but just having her pleased with me was great.  She said I will be hairless there again soon.  I am not entirely sure when that will be, or what it means.  She has mentioned waxing and the epillator so I am worried that it may be a bit painful getting rid of that hair.  At this point I am ready for even that though.  I really hate having that hair.  I would love to completely hairless below the neck, but the hair in the groin area bothers me particularly.

We also went shopping for some new adult toys, butt plugs, a dildo for her strap-on harness that will penetrate us both, a cock ring, and some nipple jewelry.  Can't wait to play with the new goodies!

Men Submit Munch

The details for our Men Submit Southern California Munch have been set.  The munch will be held this Friday, June 6th, at 6:00pm in Carlsbad, CA.  You can find details at Men Submit under the events section.  Please RSVP on Men Submit if you would like to attend.  AlphaDomme, Domalicious and myself will be attending, we look forward to meeting others in the SoCal area interested in FLRs.  Hope to see you there!

Punishment and planning a Munch

I've had quite a busy weekend.  I had got in some trouble over forgetting to hang Domalicious' laundry on the line to dry, so as punishment I was required to completely clean and organize the laundry room.  The laundry room had kind of got away from us over the past year and a half since Domalicous got hurt, so it was a pretty big job.  Domalicious also wanted the bath that is next to the laundry room cleaned, this wasn't required as part of my punishment, but I thought I would take it on as well since they are attached.  It was quite a job, I of course still had plenty of ther things I needed to take care of as well so I was kept quite busy.  Domalicious will be inspecting things sometime today, I hope that it will pass.


We are also working on putting a Men Submit munch together in the San Diego area, it will probably be held July 6th or 7th.  Keep an eye on the events section of Men Submit if you are interested in attending, it should be fun.


Sooo....The paragraphs above were a blog that I had written and submitted to Domalicious for approval on Monday.  I am requred to get approval from Domalicious before posting any blogs.  The above was not approved by Domalicious, I will copy what she told me below, I thought that it might interest readers to see a bit of our dynamic at work, then again perhaps it will not interest readers at all. hahaha


Domalicious said:


"A little sparse.  No mention of how you felt serving me, punishment, pain, fulfillment, etc.  You may NOT publish.  Work some more baby"


So here we go, I will see if I can address her concerns here.


To be honest, when she saw that I had not hung her laundry up and she was upset with me, I was pretty unhappy.  I was upset with myself, mostly, for not having remembered.   However, I was also upset with her for getting after me.  I had had a rough few days, life was getting to me in a big way, and I was not dealing with it well.  I felt like I badly needed a break, like there was too much being put on me, and that it was not that big a deal if I forgot to hang her damn laundry up.  After all I could always rewash it and hang it up the next morning.  That was part of what was going through my head, not something I am proud of, but it's the truth.  There was other stuff going through my head as well though.  That was the part that liked how she was holding me accountable and how she was going to punish me for not doing what she had told me to do.


Initially the punishment was going to be that I would have to sleep that night, on the floor, in the laundry room. I am kind of proud that I accepted my punishment graciously,. and was willing to take it like a good sub.  Domalicious was merciful to me though, she knew I was past the point of exhaustion and desperately in need of sleep, so she changed the punishment to cleaning and organizing the laundry room and even gave me through the weekend to get it done.


I was grateful; for the modification, and just a bit disappointed.  It's funny but in a way I was looking forward to the discomfort of the original punishment.


Well, I worked all weekend.  I still had to do all the other stuff I normally do as well, and I think did a pretty good job.  It was hard work, and hot.  The laundry room is on the end of the house and the air conditioner has very little effect on it, so that was a bit miserable at times.  It was also quite an undertaking since it had not really been cleaned in ages.  I enjoyed the work for the most part, it kind of re-enforced my submission to Domalicious.  Between that re-enforcement and getting a bit of rest, I am in a better place mentally again (although my stability in that better place may be a bit precarious yet).


Unfortunately there were kids around while I was working so I couldn't be naked.  I couldn't even wear a maids outfit.  There were no nipple clamps involved, not butt plug, and Domalicious didn't stop by to paddle my behind even once, but it was supposed to be punishment after all.  Ah well, maybe someday.


So that is how things went, I am so glad that I have been able to get a little more rest and be in a somewhat better mental and emotional state.  To me that is one of the biggest struggles with our FLR.  When life gets in the way, as it has in a huge way for Domalicious and I over the past year and a half, I find it very difficult to keep a properly submissive attitude.  It is something I am working on, but I truly struggle when I become physically exhausted, it becomes so difficult to deal with the mental and emotional strain that I find myself under at those times.  These pressures don't come from our FLR but they certainly effect it.

Men Submit podcasts!

We now have podcasts available on the  Men Submit website (just click on "Podcasts" on the navigation bar near the top of the page), you can download them there or from ITunes.  There are four podcasts available so far, with more in the works.  Hope you will check them out.

A visit from AlphaDomme and betaboy.

It's been quite a while since I have updated this blog, but life has got in the way and I have had more important things that needed my attention.  Domalicious' recovery is continuing, we are keeping quite busy trying to get her well again.  Spring has sprung and that has kept me busy trying to maintain our little property, it is also a busy time of year for my work.  All in all we have been a bit overwhelmed and when I have had spare time I have just felt the need to relax and regroup a bit rather than maintain this blog.  I have not even had much time (or energy) to help with the Men Submit website, although I am trying to check in there regularly.  If things slow down somewhat I will try to be more regular with my updates here.

Domalicious and Master Have called it quits.  I will not go into details, if Domalicious wishes she can share regarding that.  I will say that neither of us have any regrets, it was a fantastic experience for us both.

The most exciting thing lately for us is a visit from AlphaDomme and betaboy.  It was great to see AlphaDomme again, and to meet betaboy.  For those of you who may not know I am married to and owned by Domalicious, who gave her best friend AlphaDomme ownership rights to me as well   It was very excited to be naked in front of both my owners last night and they were kind enough to give my behind a good warming with various toys.  They also had some fun with a T.E.N.S. unit attached to my privates, and there was a nipple pinching contest as well.  This was betaboys first experience serving the two of them together, they are both wonderful and creative Dommes on their own, but when they are together it is almost scary.  They have so much fun coming up with their little games, it was great fun to see how amused they were and how much fun they had teasing and playing with betaboy and I.

I would like to thank Domalicious and AlphaDomme, it was really great to have that play, and just to spend some time with them visiting and relaxing.  After all the stress and challenges I have been dealing with lately, the time with them and betaboy was just what I needed and the fact that I was able to be with both my owners made it much more special for me.

Been busy

It has been a while since I posted a blog, once again life gets in the way.  It seems difficult to find the time to write, and when I have had time I have not felt like writing.  Domalicious gave me a smack on the behind though and told me I needed to update my blog, so I will do my best.

I am not going to say much about Domalicious and Master in this post.  They have been working through some issues in their relationship.  They seem to be getting things worked out, I am happy for them and I do hope that they will be able to continue to find ways so that both their needs will be met.

Domalicious continues to recover, it is a long, slow process.  She gets frustrated at times, between pain, and just not being able to do the things she wants to do.  I think she is making remarkable progress, but Domalicious is not exactly known for her patience.

I thought I would write about the play session Domalicious and I had last night.  She was chatting with Master online, and she had me fingering Master's pussy.  She told me to go get her strap-on and put it on.  She and master got on webcam and she had me fuck her while Master watched.  I went at her pretty hard, in a couple different positions.  Master seemed to enjoy the show, he was stroking his cock as he watched.  Domalicious then sent me to the corner, I could hear her and Master talking as he stroked until he came.

After master went to bed Domalicious played with me a bit more.  She pinched and twisted my nipples until they were quite tender, teased and tortured pinky and my balls a bit, and then gave me a good whipping with the rawhide quirt.  It was a reward whipping since I had been behaving fairly well.  She would whip me until I asked her for a moment to re-group, allow me to rest until I was ready for more, and then whip me more.  She would ask if I wanted the next set harder, lighter, or the same.  I asked for harder each time, we both wanted me to be marked.  I was quite tender after it was all done, but unfortunately didn't retain any marks today.  I wish I would bruise easier, or that I was stronger and could take a harder beating, because I thought she was really smacking me and was sure I would have some marks this morning.  I will just have to try to be stronger next time.

So worth it.

Domalicious is with Master today, I am so happy for her.  I chatted online with her a while ago, she said she was happy and having lots of fun.  I hope that they will both enjoy their time together.  I wish I could be with them, but this is their time.  Domalicious said that Master was sending me some pictures to taunt me, I am so looking forward to seeing them

While this all pushes my masochistic buttons and turns me on, what I want most out of this cuckolding relationship is for Domalicious to be happy.  I love the way she lights up when I come home, and I love the way she lights up when she sees her Master, or even when she is chatting with him online.  It gives me such joy that Master is able to give her those things that I cannot and that she is able to experience so much pleasure and joy.  Master can give her many gifts that I cannot, I can give her many gifts that Master cannot, and I believe that Domalicous deserves all these gifts.

In turn Domalicious shares many gifts and her heart with both Master and I.  I have said it before and I will say it again, Master and I are very lucky men.

As for my heart, it is exclusively Domalicious'.  It belongs to her and her alone.  Master owns me, and I like and respect Master very much, but my heart belongs to Domalicious.  AlphaDomme owns me as well, Domalicious has given her partial ownership rights over me.  I love AlphaDomme, she is wonderful, but my heart belongs to Domalicious.

There was someone who commented on a blog I had posted on Men Submit who said they felt sad for me.  The blog was about Master and Domalicious' relationship, and how it made me feel in the beginning, how hard it was for me at first to share Domalicious' heart, and  how I was growing as a sub because of it.  I sure don't want anyone to feel sad for me.  The intensity of my feelings have caused me to struggle at times in the early part of this relationship, but it has caused me to grow and learn so much as well.  It has given me so much joy as I have discovered new depths of love and submission to my wife, and seen my wife make new discoveries about herself and us as well.  I feel that this relationship has been a great journey, and I am excited to continue forward.

Cuckolding is obviously not for everyone, but for a few of us it is enlightening, joyful, and fulfilling.  It is not always easy to make a journey like this.  It can be very difficult and even a bit scary to break down your emotions and really look closely at them, but for me it is worth it, oh so worth it.

some humiliation last night

Unfortunately Domalicious ended up not feeling well enough to meet Master the other evening, she was quite sad about that.  She is still recovering and has bad days and better days, but it seems she is making progress.

Master and Domalicious played with me a bit last night, and Master directed me to post about it here.  It was quite a humiliating experience, and of course having to post about it here is even more humiliating.

Domalicious had told me yesterday morning that Master had decided that they would play with me a bit in the evening.  She told me that my sissy hole would be fucked, and that I would be allowed to put pinky in Master's pussy.  Of course, even though I was very tired all day, I was very excited thinking about both those things.  I love having my ass fucked, and have been sooo missing being inside Domalicious.  By evening I was very wound up.

Domalicious and Master were chatting online, when Domalicious had me get undressed and lay on the bed beside her.  She told me to start stroking pinky, and asked me what I wanted to put in my sissy hole.  I really wanted to try this big white dildo we have, but Domalicious thought it was too soon for me to try something that big.  I ended up with the small vibrator she had used on me last time, it felt so good.  I love having my sissy hole filled, it excites me so much.  I was laying there edging pinky, with that vibrator going at full speed in my sissy hole, when Master and Domalicious decided it was time for the real humiliation to begin.

Domalicious turned on her webcam, and got it situated so that Master could see us.  I was supposed to stick pinky inside her, she wanted Master to see how pathetic I am at intercourse.  Well pinky was not being very cooperative.

I am not sure what it is, but I have a hard time getting pinky hard when Master is watching.  I get very excited, pinky will be dripping precum like crazy, but he doesn't seem to want to get hard.  Domalicious thinks he is intimidated by Master's big cock, which may be the case.  I was so excited that I was on the edge of cumming without even getting hard, that was extremely humiliating.  I could see Master laughing and shaking his head.  Domalicious even sucked on pinky a bit, something that very rarely happens, but that didn't help, I was still on the verge of cumming without being hard.  Finally she gave pinky and my balls a good hard swat, and that did the trick, he got hard.

Domalicious moved so I could enter her, and I was able to make about two feeble strokes inside her before I came with her and Master both laughing at me.  It was a very intense orgasm for me, I still had the vibrator in my sissy hole, and I was so humiliated to have Master watching.

I licked my cum out of Master's pussy, well most of it, there was some on the bed as well which she had me lick up.  It was all very humiliating, Master and Domalicious were both laughing at me, and joking about how quickly I came.

Domalicious had me put some nipple clamps on, and one of her night gowns.  She told me to go clean the vibrator and put it away.  After I had done that she had me remove the nipple clamps, and when Master excused me sent me off to bed in her nighty.  She gave me a kiss and told me that she loves her sissy.

It was all very exciting to me, and I am feeling very sub this morning even though I was allowed to cum last night.

Thank you sooo much Master for allowing me to put pinky inside your pussy, I know my performance was pathetic, but it did feel so very good to be allowed inside my wife again.  I am very grateful

I have a few marks.

Domalicious did give me a bit more whipping last night, and she was able to mark me a bit, hooray!  She was webcamming with Master, and wanted to show him her rawhide quirt and allow him to see it in action on me.  She placed me where Master could watch over the webcam.  She gave me a few good hard swats, and then asked me how hard a swat I could handle on a scale of one to ten.  I told her an eight, which she gave me.  She asked again, and I told her a nine, she gave me a nine, and Domalicious does hit hard.  It was great for me but unfortunately it hurt her shoulder a bit so that was the end of the whipping.  She did leave some nice marks though, so I am very happy about that, I hope she is as well.  Poor Domalicious though, I got a heating pad on her shoulder, and some pain killers.  She is doing better this morning, but obviously she is not quite up to whipping that hard yet.

Master and Domalicious are going to see each other tonight, I am quite excited.  I won't be allowed to be with them, but I am happy that they will have some time together at least.  Domalicious has been missing her Master.

Deeper submission.

I had a really intense experience last night at the hands of Domalicious and I am experiencing some really powerful emotions from it.

I think that I should explain first that there have been some changes in how Domalicious relates to me since she has submitted to Master.  This seems to be a result of her experiencing being a sub.  Since she is now a sub herself she has a whole new perspective on what a sub feels and goes through.  She has become more outwardly dominant towards me, or perhaps I should say more demonstrably dominant.  Things that she used to find somewhat silly and be bothered by, such as some of the D/s protocol, she is now embracing and expecting from me.  I like these changes very much, but it is definitely an adjustment for me.  I am having to sort of re-learn what she expects from me.  She has also been disciplining me more physically, which of course I love.

Last night she had me lay across the bed, she had the rawhide quirt in her hand, and I thought "alright a nice whipping will feel great right now."  She didn't say anything but just all of a sudden started whipping me very hard.  There was no warm up, she didn't say I was being punished for anything, she just started smacking that thing across my ass freaking hard.  Now it wasn't as hard as she is capable of, but it was definitely beyond my comfort level at that point.

I didn't understand why she was hitting me so hard, I thought I must have really screwed something up, and I became very upset.  I took the beating as best I could, but I started crying and trying to tell her I didn't understand.  After a bit, it seemed like forever, she asked me how many more I could take.  In my head I was thinking no more, but I just was crying and telling her I didn't understand.  She asked if I wanted twenty five, or three, or zero, or how many more I thought I could take.  I told her five more which she gave to me.

At this point the tears were really flowing and I was trying to tell her that I didn't understand.  She came down on the bed next to me and held me and told me she loved me.  She stroked me and held me and then explained that she was marking me as her property, that she wanted my bottom to carry her mark.  At that point I felt badly that I hadn't asked for more.

I have still been very emotional today, I was really confused while she was whipping me.  I was so upset thinking that I must have done something really bad to make her or Master angry enough that she would whip me like that.  Then, when I found out why she was doing it, I felt badly that I hadn't taken more.

I am still not sure what to make of this, it was just so intense.  It has made me feel very submissive today, and very needy, I can't get enough of hugging and holding Domalicious.  I am proud that I stayed there, behaved myself, and took the whipping like a good sub.  I wish I had understood from the beginning what she was doing, but that was a part of it I suppose, in a way a test of my submission to her.

Anyway, it was a very intense experience for me, the bad news is I still didn't really mark.  I do have a couple small bruises, but not what she was hoping for.  I have never bruised easily, so hopefully she will try again soon, maybe tonight, and if so I will hopefully better understand what is happening and not get so emotional and upset about it.

I am a contented sub.

Domalicious gave me a lovely time last night, after which I was able to get a decent nights sleep, this makes me a very happy sub this morning.

Domalicious gave me very nice beating last night.  She warmed me up very well, and used several different implements on me.  I am not at all sure what she used, I know she used a dressage whip, my belt, her hand, there were some other things as well, but I am not sure what.  I was just laying with my face down enjoying things, trying not to squirm too much, and trying to be somewhat quiet so I didn't see what else was used.  It was truly lovely and something I was really in need of.

After the beating she used a dildo on my sissy hole.  That was sooo nice, and something she has not done before.  I am not new to having my sissy hole fucked.  That was a big part of my training with the woman I belonged to before I met Domalicious, but it has been over ten years since I had been fucked, I missed it.  It felt so good.  I am obviously out of training though, I thought she was using a fairly large dildo, but afterward I saw it it was one of the smallest we have.  I was a bit surprised that it had made me feel so full, since at one time I was able to take a fist in my behind.

When Domalicious was done playing with me I was allowed to stimulate and finger Master's pussy.  So nice...I so love making my wife feel good and after all the play she had given me it was even more special.

When all the play was done Domalicious sent me to the other room to sleep and I was able to sleep a good six hours.  Sleep has been a bit hard to come by around here lately so that was a special treat as well.

Thank you Miss for everything last night, I am very grateful; and I am a very contented sub.

Happy St Patrick's Day!

I finally managed to get some rest last night!!!  It is so nice, I am still not truly rested, but am so much better than I have been the past week or two.  Domalicious is recovering, still has quite a bit of pain, but we have hope now.

As I mentioned in my last post I am no longer allowed intercourse with Domalicious, I am finding that this is an  interesting situation.  I want so much to be able to put pinky inside her, to feel her around me, to be one with her in that way.  I miss that very much.  However it also brings out feelings in me that I love.

I feel so deeply submitted to Master and Domalicious.  Knowing that her pussy belongs to him, and that I am not allowed inside it anymore makes me feel so owned.  It is incredibly erotic in a way.  I am also getting to do some lovely oral worship, and that is just so fantastic.  I have always loved to worship her pussy and now it is even more erotic for me knowing that it is Master's pussy and that his big cock has been inside it, and will be again, is so exciting to me.  I am so looking forward to seeing him fuck his pussy again and I hope that I will be allowed to lick his cum from it once more.

While I still feel jealous at times I am managing it much better.  The jealousy seems to be a good thing now, it is exciting in its own way, and I think it helps keep me more aware of just how lucky I am to be Domalicious' husband and sub.  The jealousy still hurts somewhat, but it is not like it was a few weeks ago when I was afraid that Master might take over Domalicious' heart and that she might not love me as much anymore.  Now I am feeling more comfortable that even though she loves Master there is always a special place in her heart for me.  He is her Master and her real man, but I will always be her subhub.

Busy week.

It has been a very busy week, and I am exhausted so I am just going to write a short update here.

Master and Domalicious were able to spend a few hours together this past week.

Domalicious went into the hospital a few days for a surgery that went well.  She is home now and on the mend, I am doing the best I can to take care of her.  I've not managed much sleep the past 4-5 days, and been stressed of course with her in the hospital.  Hopefully I will be able to get some rest at some point and I can catch up here a little better.

Master has decided that I am not allowed any form of intercourse with Domalicious now.  I am allowed to pleasure her orally, but pinky is not allowed inside her.  This is sad and exciting to me at the same time, I think it will be difficult for me over time.

Domalicious is considering having pinky pierced, a prince albert, with a lock placed through the piercing.  She seems to be very serious about this, so we will see, I am excited and nervous about it at the same time.

Sorry for the rather dry update, but exhaustion is taking it's toll, so I will stop here.

Keeping busy.

This week has been a very busy one so far.  Mostly I have been busy at work unfortunately, I wish I could have been more busy serving Master and Domalicious.  My desire to serve Master and Domalicious is just off the charts, it consumes me at times.  Master and Domalicious have not been able to see each other this week, they were hoping to do so, but my work got in the way and I was not able to drive her.  They chat a lot, and talk on the phone occasionally but it is not the same.  I know Domalicious is missing her Master.

Other than being over tired I am doing well.  I have not been experiencing any jealousy to speak of, and have just been really happy that I belong to Master and Domallicious.  Domalicious has been really good to me this week.  She has let me wear my collar to bed twice so far, that is a treat for me.  I love to wear my collar and hope that someday soon I will have a less obvious collar that I can wear 24/7.

Domalicious surprised me last night by telling me that she is considering having pinky pierced, a prince albert piercing I believe, and placing a lock through it as a chastity device.  That is very exciting to me, I would love to be locked like that.

I am finding that I am wanting more and more to be marked in some way as her, and Master's, sub.  I think that it is partly because she belongs to Master now and I want a physical, tangible reminder that I am still her's.  There are some other reasons as well, Domalicious is facing a health challenge, I am sure that she will be fine, but there is some worry for me there.  I believe those are the reasons why I so want a 24/7 collar, and why the idea of being pierced in that way is so exciting to me.  Of course, being me, the idea of having pinky locked up, and Master controlling the key and my access to my wife seems pretty hot.

Domalicious used my new paddle on me last night, that was so great.  I'm not sure if I mentioned it here or not, but Domalicious gave me a Maori war club for Valentines Day.  It is beautiful, and is a fantastic spanking implement.  I will try to post a picture of it here.  It was so nice to be paddled last night, I feel so much like I am hers when she disciplines me.

Things are going well.

Everything continues to go well with me, I am feeling more and more comfortable with Domalicious' submission to Master.  I think I am learning some things about submission, and about myself.  My submission is deepening, and I am falling further in love with my wife and owner.  My comfort level and acceptance with Master being the Alpha in this relationship is growing, I feel like this is a good fit for me as a sub.  I believe that there will be difficult times for me still, but I think I am coming to a better understanding of my jealousy and I hope that I will be able to deal with it better in the future.

I was thinking about my jealousy today, and about the difference between this relationship and the cuckolding relationships Domalicious and I have experienced in the past.  The big difference this time is the feelings that Domalicious has for Master.  None of the men that she played with in the past brought out such strong feelings in her.  There was one man she cared for, but Master is the first man she has loved.  I realized that in the past I have shared Domalicious' body with other men, but this time I am sharing her heart as well.  I have found that sharing her heart is much more difficult for me than sharing her body, but the past few days I have begun to really embrace this part of her relationship with Master.  It makes me happy that Master can be for her what I cannot, and that she can experience this depth of feeling and emotion with him.

As I have come to embrace the feelings that Domalicious has for Master my submission to, and desire for, her has grown incredibly.  We seem to be growing closer and closer.  As my submission grows so does my vulnerability, and I am finding that I like that feeling.  I feel like Domalicious holds my very being in her hand. My body, my mind, my heart, all of me is hers.  I wish to be in her presence every minute of every day, and when I am I wish to be naked, not just my body, but my heart as well.

I suppose that what I have written above may seem strange to most people, but the intensity of my feelings of submission to my wife are almost overwhelming, and I just don't know how else to describe it.

Along with Domalicious' and Master's relationship, and the emotions that it has brought forth in me, is a need for reassurance from Domalicious.  I suppose that I should not need so much reassurance, but I do.  I need to be close to Domalicious, I love to just touch her, rub her back or feet, or to just sit holding her and smell her hair or skin.  I have also been feeling the need to have something tangible to remind me of her, and her ownership of me, when I cannot be with her.  We have discussed in the past coming up with something, perhaps a necklace that I can wear as a collar.  I think that she is going to give me something like that soon and I am very excited about it.

The gifts of life.

The past couple of days have gone pretty well for me.  I have had a few jealous moments, and I have been a bit sensitive about my status a time or two, but all in all I am feeling very good about things.  This is an incredible experience, and I am truly glad to be a part of it.  I cannot really find words to express how this all makes me feel, but I would not want it any other way.

As a masochistic sub I am absolutely in heaven.  This experience seems to be deepening my submission in a profound way.  Perhaps with time I will be able to better express what I am feeling.  I live and breathe Domalicious right now.  She is my reason for being.  It is so hard for me to be away from her right now, not all due to her relationship with Master, but that is certainly a big part of it.  When I am home I just want to be with her, and I mean with her.  I want to be touching her, or as near her as I can be.  I love my work, and enjoy going out and doing other things, but honestly right now I would much rather be with her every minute of every day.  I have been afraid that I may be getting too clingy for her, but she has assured me that I am not, and that she is enjoying the level of attention I am giving her.

The jealousy and sensitivity I experience at times can be really hard to deal with.  I am finding this arises mostly when I am tired and/or stressed.  I get a bit fragile then and things that wouldn't bother me at other times can really hurt me.  I am beginning to believe though that even this occasional emotional pain is good in its own way.  I am finding that I have a love/hate relationship with this pain just as I do with the pain of a whip or cane.  There are times when I just feel like crying, and I am not a crying kind of guy.  Somehow though I think that this pain is not all bad.  Again this is all so new to me and I really can't express how it makes me feel yet.

I do believe that this emotional pain is going to be a part of a cuckolding relationship such as the one we are currently engaged in, and I would definitely not recommend that such a relationship be entered into lightly.  Domalicious and I are experienced with cuckolding, but we have definitely taken it to a new level with this current situation.I am coming to love it more and more though.

Sometimes I wonder what it is that makes me the way I am.  Why do I crave this pain.  Why do I get so excited being humiliated by my wife and her Master.  Of course a big part of my enjoyment of this is knowing that Domalicious loves me so much.  The pain that she inflicts on me is inflicted with love, it is just a different way of loving from what is considered the "norm".

I love this pain as well because it is something that I can suffer for Domalicious.  It is a way for me to show her my love.  I can give this to her as a gift and as a sign of my devotion.  I love to see how happy she is with Master, and even though it may make me jealous at times it also gives great joy.

Of course most of this experience is not painful at all, instead it is erotic and incredibly hot, if you are a masochistic sub that is.  Actually I don't think I would have to be a masochistic sub to enjoy seeing how happy and fulfilled my wife is.  Master gives Domalicious much that I am not able to give her, and it makes me incredibly happy that she is able to enjoy all these gifts of life.

Last night Master and Domalicious were playing a bit on video chat over the computer and I was allowed to be in the room with Domalicious.  It was so exciting for me to see how turned on she is by Master and the joy she is finding in being his sub.  Of course when she gets so turned on it is good for me since I am the one there with her and Master is being generous in allowing her to play with me quite a bit.

She was posing for Master last night over the video chat, and they were talking, they were teasing and humiliating me as well.  They teased me about how small pinky is and how well Master is endowed.  Master made a joke, I can't remember just what it was, but something about how pinky could not even fill a thimble, which just cracked Domalicious up.  It was so hot for me to hear her laughing at his joke, and at me, like that.

Domalicous wanted to show Master her favorite spanking implement, the rawhide quirt I have mentioned before here.  She showed it to Master and then had me lay across the bed and gave me a few stripes with it.  She must have wanted to impress Master because she put a lot of energy into them, I have some pretty good marks still.  I will post the picture of the quirt again below, it is a vicious thing when Domalicious wishes it to be.

After they were done Master gave her permission for me to worship his pussy.  It was so wonderful, she used her queening stool and allowed me to worship her.  While I was worshiping she was reminding me that it is Master's pussy now, and that I had better be sure to thank Master for allowing me to worship it.

We cuddled afterward and it was such a wonderful feeling to be her sub.  I was and am so happy that I belong to her.

Her sub, her sissy, her boy.

Since Domalicious and Master became a couple I have been feeling more sub than ever before.  I have discussed it with Domalicious and tried to explain to her that I feel almost like a sissy, not the dress up in a french maid outfit kind of sissy, just less like a "real man".  I fell more like her sub, her boy, her sissy, and I think that I understand why now.  I am not sure why I didn't understand it better before because it seems so obvious, I suppose I have just been so overwhelmed by things of late that I just didn't get it.

I think that the reason I feel more like her sissy now is that she has a real man in Master.  She does not need me to try to fill that roll for her now.  In the past I have always tried to be her real man as well as her sub.  I was not always (perhaps ever) very successful at it, but I did try.

Other than romantically I was, and still am, her real man.  I am her shoulder to lean on, her strong support, her partner in life.  Romantically we do share something very, very special, but I have never been good at being her "man".  I don't know if I am explaining this in a way that others can understand, but I think that Domalicious and perhaps AlphaDomme will.  I am not good at romance, I love Domalicious more than anyone else could possibly love her, but I just am not a romantic man, and in bed I am inadequate at intercourse.  I have always had to find other ways to please her sexually.

Even with the other cuckolding situations we have been involved with, none really fulfilled this need for Domalicious.  A couple of them were great sexually, but they still were not able to be her "real man".  She did not have the feelings for them like she does for Master and so I don't think that they could possibly have met her needs.

Now that Domalicious belongs to Master she is getting many of her romantic and sexual needs fulfilled by him.  Master is her "real man", and I am able to just be free to be her sub.  I can love and worship her as a sub more completely now, I am not trying to be something I am not.  I can make her feel like a Goddess, and Master can make her feel like his woman.  That was actually a little hard to write, because she is my woman as well, and I hope I make her feel like my woman, but it is in a different way from Master.  (Damn jealousy)

So now I can be Domalicious' sub, her sissy, her boy.  She is getting her need for a "real man" met by Master and so I am free to just be me.  This makes me very happy, I always have felt badly that I could not be the man that Domalicious needs in that way.  I have always felt like a bit of a failure when it came to being her man.  Now that I am able to just be who I am, I am being so much more romantic with her, I think that she is much happier with me.  It is a bit ironic, I am being romantic as her sissy/sub, while I could not be romantic as her man.  It is a little different kind of romance, but I think she likes it.

One man's Goddess is another man's slut.

I woke up this morning wanting Domalicious so desperately.  I desired her so much, I wanted to worship her, I wanted to hold her and to be held by her.  I love Domalicious with all my being, a look or a touch from her will cause me to shudder with joy and delight.  She is like a Goddess to me, she is my love.

To Master Domalicious is his sub, his toy, his slut.  I know that she pleases him.  He cares about her very much, I have no idea the depth of his feelings for her, but I know her respects and cares for her very much.

I find it very interesting that Domalicious can be so happy, and is so good at, being both my Goddess and Master's slut at the same time.  She is such an incredible woman, Master and I are both very lucky men.

What a great day!

Just as I had posted my last blog Master and Domalicious came back into the room.  they had brought me some food, and they lay down on the bed and began playing again.  Again it was very exciting, and I was allowed to kind of hold, and support Domalicious as Master was making love to her.

Domalicious and I are back home now, we talked a lot on the drive home, and we are both very happy.  This was a great day, I had some worries that being there while Master and Domalicious played might be difficult for me, but it wasn't.  It was absolutely freaking fantastic.

This experience made me realize a thing or two, or perhaps more accurately it really brought them home for me.  It made me feel really inadequate when it comes to performing penetrative sex.  This makes me feel kind of sad, but Domalicious and I discussed it a bit and I know that I can do much else to please her and that she is happy with me as her lover.  It also really drove home to me how much of a sub I am.  One other thing is that it truly convinced me of the veracity of my "subsexual" theory.  I will perhaps go into these things in more detail later, but I am just too tired right now.

I just want to thank Master and Domalicious once again for allowing me to be a part of this today, it was unbelievably wonderful for me and made me so happy.

That was fun!

I am writing this on Domalicious' computer from the motel room that she and Master are sharing.  They have just come out of the bath and are getting ready to go out, I will be remaining here.  This has been a great experience, it was so exciting and so much fun.

I brought Domalicous here earlier this morning and dropped her off.  I ran over to a fast food place to get her some breakfast, by the time I returned to the room she and Master were already in bed.  It was pretty funny, I hadn't been gone ten minutes, Master was not even there yet when I left, and by the time I returned with the breakfast sandwiches they were naked and in bed.  I guess they had been missing each other!

Unfortunately I had an appointment this morning, so I had to leave right away after dropping Domalicious' breakfast off, but that was probably good.  It gave Master and Domalicious a chance to be together without having the annoying sub around.

When I returned from my appointment Master was not there, but Domalicious said he would be returning soon.  I watched as she got ready for him, and was able to help with a couple of little things.  Things got very exciting upon Master's return.  Domalicious was naked, wearing a chain harness that Master likes, stockings, and elbow length gloves.  Master came into the room and kissed Domalicious so passionately.

Master had Domalicious undress him, and sent me to sit in a chair across the room.  They got onto the bed and began making love, it was so exciting to watch.  Master was was kissing Domalicious, caressing her breasts, pinching and tugging her nipples.  I don't think I need go into too much detail here, but they were making love, and Master would give Domalicious an occasional swat.  Master would ask Domalicious who her pussy belonged to and she would say "It belongs to you Master!"  They both made it very clear to me that she is Master's property.

After a while they told me to strip down to my underwear, and Domalicious asked if pinky was hard, he was very hard.  They had me move closer to the bed, and then Domalicious had me take pinky out of my underwear so that Master could see how small and pathetic he is.  I think Master was surprised that pinky was so small.  Pinky was not erect then, and pinky does look very small when flaccid.  Master commented that he understood why Domalicious could not be pleased by pinky and why she punishes him and my balls so often.

They were making love, and Master was so good, he was able to last so long, and Domalicous looked like she was in heaven as Master drove his big cock into her pussy.  He continued to give her a swat, or pinch her nipples now and then.  At one point he put his finger up her ass, I thought I might lose it right then, it was so hot.

I have no idea how long this lasted, but eventually they sent me into the bathroom so that they could enjoy each other in private.  Master did call me back at one point to bring them a bottle of water since they were getting thirsty.  I was able to hear the sounds of them making love from the bathroom, but I couldn't make out actual words most of the time, only when they would get really loud.  Domalicious had ordered that I not touch pinky while I was in the bathroom, that was so difficult, pinky was dripping precum like crazy.  I did pinch and play with my nipples a bit, I could not stand just sitting there, I had to do something.

The next thing that happened was when I heard Master cum, it sounded so intense, I wish I would have been allowed to watch it.  Master and Domalicious then called me back into the bedroom and had me kneel at the end of the bed.  Domalicious moved down to the end and lay back spreading her legs.  I could see Master's cum in her pussy, it was dripping out and a little was dribbling down toward her anus.  Domalicious told me to lick Master's cum from his pussy.  I thanked Master and Domalicious and absolutely dove in.  It was a fantasy come true for me, it was so incredible, I hope I will be allowed to do that very very often in the future.    It tasted so good, the combination of Domalicious' pussy and Master's cum, and it felt so right for me to be there, cleaning up as they watched and teased me.  Domalicious let me lick her for awhile, and let me lick her asshole as well, I never wanted to stop, I wish I was still licking her now.

She did stop me though, and she and Master have bathed and gone out together.  I have made the bed, and she wanted me to blog about this while it was still so fresh in my mind.

It's funny, I was not particularly emotional during this session, I was excited, but not overly emotional.  At one point Domalicious told me how she loved Master, that hurt a little, and spiked a bit of jealousy, but I was all good with that and with them making love.  Now as I type this I almost feel like crying, not from bad or negative emotions, but from happiness.

I realize now I was in subspace during this, I am starting to come out of it now so the emotions are kicking in.  They are really, really good emotions though.  I really feel like I belong to Master and Domalicious, that I need to be their sub, and oh God I so need to be allowed to lick Master's cum from her pussy and I hope someday from her ass.

Very intense emtions right now, I just wish that I could spend every minute of everyday serving Master and Domalicious, too bad things like jobs, mortgage payments, etc get in the way of the best things in life.

worthless sub

Master has directed that I come her and post about why I am a worthless sub (which is Master's name for me).  I am a worthless sub because although I have a penis and balls they are not very useful.  Domalicious named my penis pinky, because it is so small and pink.  While pinky is smaller than average for a penis, it would still be large enough to give Domalicious pleasure if I could just control it.

My endurance is the real problem, and the real reason that I cannot please Domalicious with pinky.  I can usually not last even a full minute before I will have to stop to keep from cumming when I am allowed to have sex with her.  There are times when I cannot even last fifteen seconds after entering Master's pussy.  I will have to stop and hold very still, Domalicious cannot move either, or I will cum.  Sex with me is a lot of stop and go for Domalicious, and is probably not very pleasurable for her, certainly not like having sex with a real man like Master.

These are the reasons that I am a worthless sub and why Domalicious needs a real man like Master to pleasure her and fulfill her needs.  I am helping to groom and prepare her tonight for a date tomorrow with Master.  I am so excited that she will be pleasured by Master, and I hope that I will be allowed to worship Master's pussy afterward and to taste his presence there.

Wishing for the whip.

I am happy to be owned by Master and Domalicious.  This is such an interesting experience, with such intense feelings.  My desire for Domalicious is off the chart right now, as is my desire to be physically dominated.  I think because I am experiencing all these emotions I really feel the need to be beaten, or to worship my wife, or to be allowed to watch her and Master together, or something that is more physical.  I guess there is so much going on in my head and heart that perhaps my body is feeling left out.

For the last several days I have felt the need to be beaten, not just a little discipline, but to be beaten into deep subspace.  I wish that Domalicious could beat me until I was senseless, and then hold and cuddle me as I come back from subspace.  I want to worship her as well, to inhale her fragrance, to touch her, and to taste her.

Domalicious belongs to Master now, as do I, and so it will be up to him what, if any, attention I get from her.

another update

So...after Domalicious read my blog last night we talked, and I had misunderstood things before regarding Master's ownership of me.  As I understand things right now, Master does still own me.  As Domalicious pointed out I am her property and so his ownership of her includes me.  How I am going to be dealt with by them is part of what they are discussing as they figure out the particulars of their relationship.  I am very happy about this and I am looking forward to serving them both in whatever way they wish.

I had a lovely night with Domalicous last night, we talked and cuddled a lot, played a lot as well.  I was and am feeling so happy in my submission to her.  We stayed up way to late, and I am exhausted this morning, but it was well worth it.  I love my wife.

More changes

Just a quick update.  Master and Domalicious' relationship has changed somewhat, they are still discussing what changes are going to take place, and what their new relationship will look like.  I really don't have any details just yet,  other than they are still together, Master still owns Domalicious.  I am not sure what my status is right now, but I believe that I am not owned by Master currently and that Domalicious has total control over me (along with AlphaDomme of course).

I will try to update here as things become more clear.

Feeling well.

My heart and head are finally catching up with all the changes over the past week.  I am getting a much better handle on my emotions.  I am comfortable now, I am getting to know Master better, and getting things straight in my head.  Yesterday and today I have not had any worries, and have been able to just enjoy the ride.

It is fun and exciting.  I love seeing Domalicious so happy, and seeing her experience being a sub first hand is so much fun for me.  It's all incredibly hot and erotic for me as well.  I love the control that Master has taken in our relationship even though it tortures me at times.  Not being able to kiss, or touch Domalicious without his permission is driving me crazy, I desire her so much, and it is so exciting for a masochist like me to be denied that physical access to my wife.  At the same time I need to say that Master has been generous and has not taken the denial to a point that it is more than either Domalicious or I can handle.

Of course I know that Master will be increasing his control over us, but I am comfortable now that Master will not push us too far too fast.  I believe he will push our limits, but my trust in him is growing and now I truly do feel comfortable and safe as his sub.

I was punished last night for having cum without permission a couple nights back.  Domalicious used the dressage whip and the quirt pictured below on me.

It was a fairly intense punishment whipping, there was no warm up, and it definitely got my attention.  It was also something I really needed, it was cathartic beside being punishing.  I can still feel the fire of the dressage whip on my back.  Thank you Master and Miss for this punishment.

Master was generous and allowed me to touch Domalicous last night.  We cuddled, and I rubbed and kissed her back.  Master had said that Domalicous could have intercourse with me if she wished.  It was her choice and she chose not to.  I am glad she made the choice she did, I think that both of us are truly beginning to love the fact that Master owns her body and to believe that it should be reserved for his pleasure.

I am still experiencing some very intense emotional moments, but yesterday and today, those moments have all been positive.  I am very happy and content right now.

Domalicious is home

Domalicious is home now, her time with Master seems to have gone very well.  Master told me that I should be very proud of her, and I am soooo proud of her.  She has always been such a strong wife and Domme for me, and I know that she will be a strong sub for Master.

I did have a difficult time yesterday when I picked Domalicious up.  Master had directed that I was not allowed to touch, hug, or kiss her until the evening.  I was feeling a bit fragile, and really needed a hug, but I made it through and Domalicous held me and made me feel so much better last night once we were allowed to touch one another.

When he found out that I had been struggling with my feelings Master was very generous and allowed me to have intercourse with Domalicious last night.  I am very grateful to him for that, it felt so wonderful to be inside her.  I was reminded that she, her pussy, and all her holes do belong to him, and that I was only being allowed into his pussy through his generosity, and I truly am grateful to him for that.  I wasn't able to do much more than just enter her, I was so worked up that I almost came just being inside her, but it still felt so good to be there, and to be a part of her, I needed that closeness.  Knowing that I was in Master's property just heightened the excitement for me.

I am finding this new relationship to be a real emotional roller coaster for me.  We have been involved in many cuckold relationships before, but the dynamic is so much different this time that it is raising many new feelings for me.  I am euphoric at times, and scared at times.  The euphoric times far out number the scary times, but both are very powerful.

I see Domalicious developing such strong feelings for Master, and I understand how powerful the feelings a sub has for her/his Dominant can be.  That is what is scary for me.  In all the previous cuckold relationships we have experienced I was never concerned that Domalicious' feelings for her partner would rival the feelings that she has for me.  In this situation I am not so sure.  I can see the possibility for her developing feelings for Master that are as strong as the feelings that she has for me.

 This possibility is what I have been struggling with most since Domalicious first met Master.  I am dealing with things much better now.  I had a talk with Domalicious about this, and she reassured me.  I also remembered a conversation I once had with a Domme and her sub/husband about this very subject.

To make a long story short, her husband had struggled with the same concerns when they had entered a somewhat similar cuckolding situation (she was not the "bull's" sub though) with a man that she developed very strong feelings for.  What she explained to me was that just because she loved her "real man" as much as her sub did not mean she loved the sub any less than she had before the bull came into the relationship, or that she would ever let her sub go.

She told me that she loved her sub and the other man in different ways and that her sub was her forever sub, the love of her life, and she would never let him go.  She also said that it was really hard to say that she loved the bull as much as the sub, or vice versa.  She said that the love was different, and asked "how does one measure love anyway."

I discussed this with Domalicious last night, and she reassured me that this is the kind of place that I hold in her heart and that she will never let me go either.  She told me that she has talked with Master about this and that Master would never try to separate us, and that she was very clear with him that I will always be her subhub.  With the trust I have in Domalicious I feel much better after the talk we had last night.

poor pinky

I was feeling so horny this morning.  I awoke humping against the mattress, pinky would so love to be allowed inside Domalicious' pussy.  Her pussy belongs to Master now though, and for that matter so does pinky.  It is such a turn on to me to be denied that pleasure and honor.  I do consider being allowed inside Domalicious an honor, and I have always thanked her when she allowed me to enter her.  Now her pussy belongs to Master and even if she wants to have pinky inside her she cannot without his permission.  Domalicious and I are both experiencing denial now, and it is such a turn on.

I had a difficult time falling asleep last night.  Domalicous called me and told me about her experience with Master, she thought it was wonderful, and I am so happy for her.  It didn't make it easy to sleep though, with thoughts of Master flogging and fucking her running through my mind.  Domalicious told me last night that I was not allowed to touch pinky, that made it even more difficult to fall asleep, no wife beside me to stroke, and no permission to stroke pinky.

Fortunately, once I was able to fall asleep, I slept well until my fantasies awakened me this morning.

Been a wild couple of days.

A warning before you read on, this post may ramble, change direction without warning, or otherwise be difficult to follow.  The last couple of days have seen so many changes for Domalicious and I.  My brain and heart are still playing catch up.  It is all so new I have not got a real handle on it all yet.  That is partly why I am writing this post, to try to help me get a better handle on all these changes, so I apologize if it ends up being difficult to follow.

I got home a short time ago after taking Domalicious into the city to meet Master.  They will be sharing a hotel, spending time getting to know one another better and of course Domalicious will get her first experience serving Master in person.  Master has said that I will not be allowed to participate in their first several meetings as they get to know one another and establish their relationship.  I am excited for Domalicous, and a bit nervous as well, I hope that it will all work out and that she will be okay.

I am not worried about her being unsafe with Master (well, okay I am just a tiny bit as I always am when she first spends alone time with a new guy), but I am worried that things will move to fast, that she may be overwhelmed, that the sub experience may be emotionally overwhelming for her.  From what I have seen of Master I think that he will train her carefully and not give her more than she can handle, but as a sub I know how powerful those emotions can be.  Domalicious is already experiencing how strong those  emotions can be, she is already developing very strong feelings for Master.  I am so in love with Domalicious and I just do not want to see her hurt.

Things are evolving very quickly, which I think is okay, it all feels right, but it is a bit scary too.  I am so thrilled to see my wife/owner so happy, she is on cloud nine when she is serving Master.  D/s relationships do seem to move faster than vanilla relationships, I suppose due to the way we must open ourselves up in a D/s situation, we get to know each other so intimately so much sooner.  I just hope that it does not turn bad suddenly.  I trust Domalicous and her judgement in these matters, and we have been discussing it a lot.  I think that one thing we both feel strongly about is that, even if things do not work out in the end, this has already been an amazing experience.

I do believe that things will work out.  I just have a feeling that all is right.  As I said I trust Domalicious, she is a good judge of people and she seems to be very comfortable with Master. I have been allowed access to some of their chats as well and he truly seems like a quality, honorable man.

Something else that is a bit scary to me in this situation is that I am not allowed to know much of what is going on between them.  This is something new, as in all her previous relationships Domalicious would allow and even encourage me to read her chats, emails, etc.  To be kept in the dark is a bit scary, but I think I understand the need.  They need to work on their relationship first and get it established before placing me in the mix.  I am sure there is much for them to figure out together as this is the first time Domalicious has submitted to anyone, everything is new to her as well and she does not need to be trying to figure out how to deal with me right now.  She needs to be concentrating on finding her place as Master's sub.  Did I mentions this was complicated?

As I said earlier I truly love Domalicious and I do not want to see her hurt.  The thing is that if this relationship continues there will be times when she will be hurt, and I will have to deal with it.  I don't mean hurt in the physical sense, I know that she will experience physical pain at the hands of Master but I do not believe that Master would purposely injure her or give her more pain than he thinks she can handle even as punishment. I am worried about her being hurt emotionally.  I am going to have to understand that they have a relationship with each other, respect that, and understand my role in the relationship as a whole.  I want to be there to comfort her, but I am not really going to be in a position to interfere with her relationship with her Dom.    I mean they are both Dominant over me, I just don't know how this will all play out.  She is Masters sub and has chosen to give herself to him, I cannot interfere with that.  I am truly beginning to understand what it means to be a sub, a real sub and to truly give up power.  Will there be times when I cannot be my wife's protector out of respect for her relationship with Master?  There is so much to think about here, and I think so much more to learn about myself, and my wife.

Although she is my wife and I her husband will I still be her primary?  I suppose not, which is scary as hell for me.  I mean I don't think I will ever lose her, but this is just so different from the poly relationships we have had in the past. She always had control in the past, she was always the Alpha.  Now Master is the Alpha.

I think I have just had an epiphany,  it is now about trusting Domalicious and in time it will be about truly trusting Master.  I think that is what is worrying me so much right now, I don't know Master well enough now, but Domalicious does, and she trusts him.  I trust Domalicious and have given myself completely to her, so I will follow her and continue to place my trust in her.  I am sure as I get to know Master better that I will grow to trust him as she does as well.  In the meantime I must be patient and trust in my owner.

I thought about removing some of the above post after realizing what the problem I was experiencing really was, but I think it is important that I let it stand.  I do apologize to Domalicious, and to Master for my lack of trust, I think it is just that so much has happened so quickly that I kind of lost track of that most important part of my submission.

Well, as I was working through the above Domalicious came on chat, and we talked for awhile.  She said that everything was going extremely well and that she was very happy!  I am so relieved!

Since this relationship is still in it's infancy there is much I do not yet know as far as how the dynamics will actually work, but I know now I just need to be patient and allow it to develop with Master's and Domalicious' guidance.  It is a bit scary to be in the dark about so much, but I think I have a better understanding of that now.

Some fun last night.

Master has directed me to post here about the time I was allowed to be involved with he and Domalicious last night, I hope my post will please him.  I am afraid that I may leave something(s) out as it was all so emotionally and sexually charged that my head was spinning by the time he sent me off to sleep and some of last night seems a bit of a blur (in a good way).

Master and Domalicious had spent much of the day yesterday chatting online and on the phone, I was not really involved in any play until the evening, so I will begin then.

Domalicious called me into her room and told me that Master had ordered her to send him a picture of her breasts, I was to take the picture.  I took the picture and she sent it to Master, who seemed pleased and commented on how much he was going to enjoy playing with her breasts and placing them in bondage.  Master then ordered Domalicious to squeeze my cock and balls "fucking hard" and to remind me that he owns her, that she is his slut,  that her pussy and all her holes belong to him.  Domalicious did so, squeezing until I could not help but cry out from the pain, I was then sent to stand in the corner while they chatted some more.

A while later, I have no idea how much time had passed, Domalicious had me return to the bed and sit next to her.  She grabbed my pinky and balls again and began squeezing them as she showed me a picture of Master's cock and balls and told me that "This is what a real man's cock looks like."   She continued to squeeze telling me that it was the cock that would be fucking her pussy and ass and that she would be sucking from now on.  I was so excited at the humiliation I was experiencing and at seeing the lust that Domalicious has for Masters wonderful cock.  I was then sent back to the corner with orders to think about Master's cock and how he would be using it on my wife.

More time passed as I stood in the corner, I coiuld hear Domalicious occasionally giggle, moan now and then, and there was even an "Oh my God!" or two thrown in there.  After a while I heard her get up from the bed, she came up behind me, and told me that Master was pissed that we lived so far away and that he could not be with his slut tonight.  She told me that Master had directed her to punish me for this, and that I was to assume the position so that she could whip me.  I forgot to mention earlier that Master had Domalicious send him a link to this blog, and that he had seen the picture of the black and purple whip that Domalicious uses on me.

That was the whip that he chose for her to punish me with, at least  I think it was I didn't actually see the whip, but it felt like this one.  She told me that this was punishment and there would be no warm up.  She then gave me four hard lashes with the whip.  Domalicous returned to the bed, and her conversation with Master while I remained in the corner.

It seemed like I was left in the corner quite a while this time, but it is hard to judge the passage of time when you are in that situation so I really don't know how long it had been when Domalicious called me back to the bed.  She showed me the chat window that she had open for her chat with Master and I saw that he had said I was allowed to finger her and use the glass dildo on her.  He said that he was pleased with the way I had quickly completed some tasks he and Domalicious had given me earlier in the day.

Domalicious got on her hands and knees, with her bottom up and I began to finger her.  She was so incredibly wet and hot.  I inserted two fingers and began fucking and working her pussy, gently at first but just for a moment since she was already so hot, and then began fucking her hard with my fingers.  She was reminding me that she is Master's slut, that she belongs to him, that it was his pussy that I was fingering.  I began using the glass dildo on her, soon had her on the verge of orgasm.  She told me to stop, I didn't understand why, but then the phone rang.  Master wanted to listen to her orgasm.

She picked up the phone and said hello to Master, and asked him if I could begin fucking her again.  I began with my fingers, and soon she told me to use the dildo again.  As I fucked her with the dildo she was moaning, and gasping, and telling Master that she was his property, telling him how much she wanted his cock, and to be with him.  She rolled onto her back and continued to talk to Master.  Her foot found my pinky and she told Master how excited and hard I was, she asked him if she could kick my balls as I fucked her for him.  I couldn't hear but Master must have said yes as she began to kick my balls and pinky.  She would rub pinky with her foot and then stomp on my balls.

It wasn't long before she asked Master for permission to cum.  She began an incredible orgasm, she was cumming and cumming like I have never seen her cum.  She was still rubbing pinky and stomping at my balls, and I got so excited I just lost it, began to cum myself.  I unfortunately did not have permission to cum.  Domalicous had orgasm after orgasm, I continued to fuck her for Master with the dildo.  I would slow and gentle the fucking as she began to come down from one orgasm, but then suddenly ramp it up sending her into another.  Domalicious had three or four orgasms, none of us, including her, were sure just how many she actually had.

I of course was (am) in trouble for having cum without permission, I licked my cum from Domalicious' foot, and from myself.  I then cleaned up the dildo and Master told me to go to sleep while he and Domalicious talked more.

This was a wonderful session, I think we all enjoyed it very much.  Even though I came I was still incredibly horny.  Master said that I could sleep in bed with Domalicious but we were not allowed to kiss or touch each other the rest of the night.  I think this drove us both a bit crazy, as we love to cuddle at night, and I usually rub her back to help her fall asleep.  I found myself waking several times during the night, and had to keep reminding myself that I was not allowed to touch Domalicious.  I was so restless during the night, fantasizing about serving Master and Domalicious.

I was so happy this morning when we awoke and Domalicious said that we were allowed to kiss.

An interesting turn of events.

The times they are a changing, and perhaps so is the direction of this Blog at least somewhat.  Domalicious recently decided to look for a new guy, and she has found one.  The interesting thing is that the new man in her life is a Dom.  He is now her, and my, Master.

Domalicious had told me before that she thought she may be a switch, and she had even played around a bit "subbing" to one of her guys who was a switch himself, though she always directed the action. it was always just a role play situation.  Oh, how things have changed in the last couple of days.

She met our Master online and began chatting with him, they really hit it off, and so last night they met in person. They seem to have very good chemistry, and Domalicious is very excited by all of this.  She seems to be really getting into being Master's sub.  I am as well I must admit.

Domalicious and Master spent a couple of hours together last night, I briefly met him, but they apparently were both very pleased with their meeting.  The chemistry was so right, and they felt so good about each other that Master has already taken ownership of her.  They have been chatting a great deal online since then, as well as speaking on the phone, and the relationship is taking shape and evolving quickly.

Domalicious now belongs  to Master, I belong to them both.  Domalicous' body is Master's, I have no rights to it.  As I understand it I will probably not be allowed to have intercourse with Domalicous anymore.  If Master approves I may be allowed to touch her and to worship her orally.  She is now Master's plaything, he may direct her, use her, and punish her as he pleases.

Adendum 02/12/12:  Master wished me to be more specific regarding his ownership of Domalicious' body and to clarify that her pussy and all her holes belong to him now.  

This is very exciting to both Domalicous and I, she is discovering a side of herself that she really did not recognize before.  I am finding it incredibly erotic, as well as interesting and sometimes amusing.  I love watching as Domalicous takes her first steps on the journey of submission.  It it exciting to see how it thrills her, it is amusing to watch her confronted with situations that put a sub on the spot, just like I have dealt with for years as her sub, and see her deal with them.

As for me; well I am so excited and turned on by all this that I have been able to think of little else for the past 24 hours.  I could hardly sleep last night, and have spent much of today with pinky erect as I thought and fantasized about my new role as the sub of a sub.  There is so much fodder for fantasizing in this situation I find myself in, I will have to be careful that I do not get lost in fantasy land.

An FLR computer game

A member of the At Her Feet Forum posted a link there to this game, it is a crack up!