I've had quite a busy weekend. I had got in some trouble over forgetting to hang Domalicious' laundry on the line to dry, so as punishment I was required to completely clean and organize the laundry room. The laundry room had kind of got away from us over the past year and a half since Domalicous got hurt, so it was a pretty big job. Domalicious also wanted the bath that is next to the laundry room cleaned, this wasn't required as part of my punishment, but I thought I would take it on as well since they are attached. It was quite a job, I of course still had plenty of ther things I needed to take care of as well so I was kept quite busy. Domalicious will be inspecting things sometime today, I hope that it will pass.
We are also working on putting a Men Submit munch together in the San Diego area, it will probably be held July 6th or 7th. Keep an eye on the events section of Men Submit if you are interested in attending, it should be fun.
Sooo....The paragraphs above were a blog that I had written and submitted to Domalicious for approval on Monday. I am requred to get approval from Domalicious before posting any blogs. The above was not approved by Domalicious, I will copy what she told me below, I thought that it might interest readers to see a bit of our dynamic at work, then again perhaps it will not interest readers at all. hahaha
Domalicious said:
"A little sparse. No mention of how you felt serving me, punishment, pain, fulfillment, etc. You may NOT publish. Work some more baby"
So here we go, I will see if I can address her concerns here.
To be honest, when she saw that I had not hung her laundry up and she was upset with me, I was pretty unhappy. I was upset with myself, mostly, for not having remembered. However, I was also upset with her for getting after me. I had had a rough few days, life was getting to me in a big way, and I was not dealing with it well. I felt like I badly needed a break, like there was too much being put on me, and that it was not that big a deal if I forgot to hang her damn laundry up. After all I could always rewash it and hang it up the next morning. That was part of what was going through my head, not something I am proud of, but it's the truth. There was other stuff going through my head as well though. That was the part that liked how she was holding me accountable and how she was going to punish me for not doing what she had told me to do.
Initially the punishment was going to be that I would have to sleep that night, on the floor, in the laundry room. I am kind of proud that I accepted my punishment graciously,. and was willing to take it like a good sub. Domalicious was merciful to me though, she knew I was past the point of exhaustion and desperately in need of sleep, so she changed the punishment to cleaning and organizing the laundry room and even gave me through the weekend to get it done.
I was grateful; for the modification, and just a bit disappointed. It's funny but in a way I was looking forward to the discomfort of the original punishment.
Well, I worked all weekend. I still had to do all the other stuff I normally do as well, and I think did a pretty good job. It was hard work, and hot. The laundry room is on the end of the house and the air conditioner has very little effect on it, so that was a bit miserable at times. It was also quite an undertaking since it had not really been cleaned in ages. I enjoyed the work for the most part, it kind of re-enforced my submission to Domalicious. Between that re-enforcement and getting a bit of rest, I am in a better place mentally again (although my stability in that better place may be a bit precarious yet).
Unfortunately there were kids around while I was working so I couldn't be naked. I couldn't even wear a maids outfit. There were no nipple clamps involved, not butt plug, and Domalicious didn't stop by to paddle my behind even once, but it was supposed to be punishment after all. Ah well, maybe someday.
So that is how things went, I am so glad that I have been able to get a little more rest and be in a somewhat better mental and emotional state. To me that is one of the biggest struggles with our FLR. When life gets in the way, as it has in a huge way for Domalicious and I over the past year and a half, I find it very difficult to keep a properly submissive attitude. It is something I am working on, but I truly struggle when I become physically exhausted, it becomes so difficult to deal with the mental and emotional strain that I find myself under at those times. These pressures don't come from our FLR but they certainly effect it.
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