Since Domalicious and Master became a couple I have been feeling more sub than ever before. I have discussed it with Domalicious and tried to explain to her that I feel almost like a sissy, not the dress up in a french maid outfit kind of sissy, just less like a "real man". I fell more like her sub, her boy, her sissy, and I think that I understand why now. I am not sure why I didn't understand it better before because it seems so obvious, I suppose I have just been so overwhelmed by things of late that I just didn't get it.
I think that the reason I feel more like her sissy now is that she has a real man in Master. She does not need me to try to fill that roll for her now. In the past I have always tried to be her real man as well as her sub. I was not always (perhaps ever) very successful at it, but I did try.
Other than romantically I was, and still am, her real man. I am her shoulder to lean on, her strong support, her partner in life. Romantically we do share something very, very special, but I have never been good at being her "man". I don't know if I am explaining this in a way that others can understand, but I think that Domalicious and perhaps AlphaDomme will. I am not good at romance, I love Domalicious more than anyone else could possibly love her, but I just am not a romantic man, and in bed I am inadequate at intercourse. I have always had to find other ways to please her sexually.
Even with the other cuckolding situations we have been involved with, none really fulfilled this need for Domalicious. A couple of them were great sexually, but they still were not able to be her "real man". She did not have the feelings for them like she does for Master and so I don't think that they could possibly have met her needs.
Now that Domalicious belongs to Master she is getting many of her romantic and sexual needs fulfilled by him. Master is her "real man", and I am able to just be free to be her sub. I can love and worship her as a sub more completely now, I am not trying to be something I am not. I can make her feel like a Goddess, and Master can make her feel like his woman. That was actually a little hard to write, because she is my woman as well, and I hope I make her feel like my woman, but it is in a different way from Master. (Damn jealousy)
So now I can be Domalicious' sub, her sissy, her boy. She is getting her need for a "real man" met by Master and so I am free to just be me. This makes me very happy, I always have felt badly that I could not be the man that Domalicious needs in that way. I have always felt like a bit of a failure when it came to being her man. Now that I am able to just be who I am, I am being so much more romantic with her, I think that she is much happier with me. It is a bit ironic, I am being romantic as her sissy/sub, while I could not be romantic as her man. It is a little different kind of romance, but I think she likes it.
subtlyhers
Monday, February 27, 2012
Saturday, February 25, 2012
One man's Goddess is another man's slut.
I woke up this morning wanting Domalicious so desperately. I desired her so much, I wanted to worship her, I wanted to hold her and to be held by her. I love Domalicious with all my being, a look or a touch from her will cause me to shudder with joy and delight. She is like a Goddess to me, she is my love.
To Master Domalicious is his sub, his toy, his slut. I know that she pleases him. He cares about her very much, I have no idea the depth of his feelings for her, but I know her respects and cares for her very much.
I find it very interesting that Domalicious can be so happy, and is so good at, being both my Goddess and Master's slut at the same time. She is such an incredible woman, Master and I are both very lucky men.
To Master Domalicious is his sub, his toy, his slut. I know that she pleases him. He cares about her very much, I have no idea the depth of his feelings for her, but I know her respects and cares for her very much.
I find it very interesting that Domalicious can be so happy, and is so good at, being both my Goddess and Master's slut at the same time. She is such an incredible woman, Master and I are both very lucky men.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
What a great day!
Just as I had posted my last blog Master and Domalicious came back into the room. they had brought me some food, and they lay down on the bed and began playing again. Again it was very exciting, and I was allowed to kind of hold, and support Domalicious as Master was making love to her.
Domalicious and I are back home now, we talked a lot on the drive home, and we are both very happy. This was a great day, I had some worries that being there while Master and Domalicious played might be difficult for me, but it wasn't. It was absolutely freaking fantastic.
This experience made me realize a thing or two, or perhaps more accurately it really brought them home for me. It made me feel really inadequate when it comes to performing penetrative sex. This makes me feel kind of sad, but Domalicious and I discussed it a bit and I know that I can do much else to please her and that she is happy with me as her lover. It also really drove home to me how much of a sub I am. One other thing is that it truly convinced me of the veracity of my "subsexual" theory. I will perhaps go into these things in more detail later, but I am just too tired right now.
I just want to thank Master and Domalicious once again for allowing me to be a part of this today, it was unbelievably wonderful for me and made me so happy.
Domalicious and I are back home now, we talked a lot on the drive home, and we are both very happy. This was a great day, I had some worries that being there while Master and Domalicious played might be difficult for me, but it wasn't. It was absolutely freaking fantastic.
This experience made me realize a thing or two, or perhaps more accurately it really brought them home for me. It made me feel really inadequate when it comes to performing penetrative sex. This makes me feel kind of sad, but Domalicious and I discussed it a bit and I know that I can do much else to please her and that she is happy with me as her lover. It also really drove home to me how much of a sub I am. One other thing is that it truly convinced me of the veracity of my "subsexual" theory. I will perhaps go into these things in more detail later, but I am just too tired right now.
I just want to thank Master and Domalicious once again for allowing me to be a part of this today, it was unbelievably wonderful for me and made me so happy.
That was fun!
I am writing this on Domalicious' computer from the motel room that she and Master are sharing. They have just come out of the bath and are getting ready to go out, I will be remaining here. This has been a great experience, it was so exciting and so much fun.
I brought Domalicous here earlier this morning and dropped her off. I ran over to a fast food place to get her some breakfast, by the time I returned to the room she and Master were already in bed. It was pretty funny, I hadn't been gone ten minutes, Master was not even there yet when I left, and by the time I returned with the breakfast sandwiches they were naked and in bed. I guess they had been missing each other!
Unfortunately I had an appointment this morning, so I had to leave right away after dropping Domalicious' breakfast off, but that was probably good. It gave Master and Domalicious a chance to be together without having the annoying sub around.
When I returned from my appointment Master was not there, but Domalicious said he would be returning soon. I watched as she got ready for him, and was able to help with a couple of little things. Things got very exciting upon Master's return. Domalicious was naked, wearing a chain harness that Master likes, stockings, and elbow length gloves. Master came into the room and kissed Domalicious so passionately.
Master had Domalicious undress him, and sent me to sit in a chair across the room. They got onto the bed and began making love, it was so exciting to watch. Master was was kissing Domalicious, caressing her breasts, pinching and tugging her nipples. I don't think I need go into too much detail here, but they were making love, and Master would give Domalicious an occasional swat. Master would ask Domalicious who her pussy belonged to and she would say "It belongs to you Master!" They both made it very clear to me that she is Master's property.
After a while they told me to strip down to my underwear, and Domalicious asked if pinky was hard, he was very hard. They had me move closer to the bed, and then Domalicious had me take pinky out of my underwear so that Master could see how small and pathetic he is. I think Master was surprised that pinky was so small. Pinky was not erect then, and pinky does look very small when flaccid. Master commented that he understood why Domalicious could not be pleased by pinky and why she punishes him and my balls so often.
They were making love, and Master was so good, he was able to last so long, and Domalicous looked like she was in heaven as Master drove his big cock into her pussy. He continued to give her a swat, or pinch her nipples now and then. At one point he put his finger up her ass, I thought I might lose it right then, it was so hot.
I have no idea how long this lasted, but eventually they sent me into the bathroom so that they could enjoy each other in private. Master did call me back at one point to bring them a bottle of water since they were getting thirsty. I was able to hear the sounds of them making love from the bathroom, but I couldn't make out actual words most of the time, only when they would get really loud. Domalicious had ordered that I not touch pinky while I was in the bathroom, that was so difficult, pinky was dripping precum like crazy. I did pinch and play with my nipples a bit, I could not stand just sitting there, I had to do something.
The next thing that happened was when I heard Master cum, it sounded so intense, I wish I would have been allowed to watch it. Master and Domalicious then called me back into the bedroom and had me kneel at the end of the bed. Domalicious moved down to the end and lay back spreading her legs. I could see Master's cum in her pussy, it was dripping out and a little was dribbling down toward her anus. Domalicious told me to lick Master's cum from his pussy. I thanked Master and Domalicious and absolutely dove in. It was a fantasy come true for me, it was so incredible, I hope I will be allowed to do that very very often in the future. It tasted so good, the combination of Domalicious' pussy and Master's cum, and it felt so right for me to be there, cleaning up as they watched and teased me. Domalicious let me lick her for awhile, and let me lick her asshole as well, I never wanted to stop, I wish I was still licking her now.
She did stop me though, and she and Master have bathed and gone out together. I have made the bed, and she wanted me to blog about this while it was still so fresh in my mind.
It's funny, I was not particularly emotional during this session, I was excited, but not overly emotional. At one point Domalicious told me how she loved Master, that hurt a little, and spiked a bit of jealousy, but I was all good with that and with them making love. Now as I type this I almost feel like crying, not from bad or negative emotions, but from happiness.
I realize now I was in subspace during this, I am starting to come out of it now so the emotions are kicking in. They are really, really good emotions though. I really feel like I belong to Master and Domalicious, that I need to be their sub, and oh God I so need to be allowed to lick Master's cum from her pussy and I hope someday from her ass.
Very intense emtions right now, I just wish that I could spend every minute of everyday serving Master and Domalicious, too bad things like jobs, mortgage payments, etc get in the way of the best things in life.
I brought Domalicous here earlier this morning and dropped her off. I ran over to a fast food place to get her some breakfast, by the time I returned to the room she and Master were already in bed. It was pretty funny, I hadn't been gone ten minutes, Master was not even there yet when I left, and by the time I returned with the breakfast sandwiches they were naked and in bed. I guess they had been missing each other!
Unfortunately I had an appointment this morning, so I had to leave right away after dropping Domalicious' breakfast off, but that was probably good. It gave Master and Domalicious a chance to be together without having the annoying sub around.
When I returned from my appointment Master was not there, but Domalicious said he would be returning soon. I watched as she got ready for him, and was able to help with a couple of little things. Things got very exciting upon Master's return. Domalicious was naked, wearing a chain harness that Master likes, stockings, and elbow length gloves. Master came into the room and kissed Domalicious so passionately.
Master had Domalicious undress him, and sent me to sit in a chair across the room. They got onto the bed and began making love, it was so exciting to watch. Master was was kissing Domalicious, caressing her breasts, pinching and tugging her nipples. I don't think I need go into too much detail here, but they were making love, and Master would give Domalicious an occasional swat. Master would ask Domalicious who her pussy belonged to and she would say "It belongs to you Master!" They both made it very clear to me that she is Master's property.
After a while they told me to strip down to my underwear, and Domalicious asked if pinky was hard, he was very hard. They had me move closer to the bed, and then Domalicious had me take pinky out of my underwear so that Master could see how small and pathetic he is. I think Master was surprised that pinky was so small. Pinky was not erect then, and pinky does look very small when flaccid. Master commented that he understood why Domalicious could not be pleased by pinky and why she punishes him and my balls so often.
They were making love, and Master was so good, he was able to last so long, and Domalicous looked like she was in heaven as Master drove his big cock into her pussy. He continued to give her a swat, or pinch her nipples now and then. At one point he put his finger up her ass, I thought I might lose it right then, it was so hot.
I have no idea how long this lasted, but eventually they sent me into the bathroom so that they could enjoy each other in private. Master did call me back at one point to bring them a bottle of water since they were getting thirsty. I was able to hear the sounds of them making love from the bathroom, but I couldn't make out actual words most of the time, only when they would get really loud. Domalicious had ordered that I not touch pinky while I was in the bathroom, that was so difficult, pinky was dripping precum like crazy. I did pinch and play with my nipples a bit, I could not stand just sitting there, I had to do something.
The next thing that happened was when I heard Master cum, it sounded so intense, I wish I would have been allowed to watch it. Master and Domalicious then called me back into the bedroom and had me kneel at the end of the bed. Domalicious moved down to the end and lay back spreading her legs. I could see Master's cum in her pussy, it was dripping out and a little was dribbling down toward her anus. Domalicious told me to lick Master's cum from his pussy. I thanked Master and Domalicious and absolutely dove in. It was a fantasy come true for me, it was so incredible, I hope I will be allowed to do that very very often in the future. It tasted so good, the combination of Domalicious' pussy and Master's cum, and it felt so right for me to be there, cleaning up as they watched and teased me. Domalicious let me lick her for awhile, and let me lick her asshole as well, I never wanted to stop, I wish I was still licking her now.
She did stop me though, and she and Master have bathed and gone out together. I have made the bed, and she wanted me to blog about this while it was still so fresh in my mind.
It's funny, I was not particularly emotional during this session, I was excited, but not overly emotional. At one point Domalicious told me how she loved Master, that hurt a little, and spiked a bit of jealousy, but I was all good with that and with them making love. Now as I type this I almost feel like crying, not from bad or negative emotions, but from happiness.
I realize now I was in subspace during this, I am starting to come out of it now so the emotions are kicking in. They are really, really good emotions though. I really feel like I belong to Master and Domalicious, that I need to be their sub, and oh God I so need to be allowed to lick Master's cum from her pussy and I hope someday from her ass.
Very intense emtions right now, I just wish that I could spend every minute of everyday serving Master and Domalicious, too bad things like jobs, mortgage payments, etc get in the way of the best things in life.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
worthless sub
Master has directed that I come her and post about why I am a worthless sub (which is Master's name for me). I am a worthless sub because although I have a penis and balls they are not very useful. Domalicious named my penis pinky, because it is so small and pink. While pinky is smaller than average for a penis, it would still be large enough to give Domalicious pleasure if I could just control it.
My endurance is the real problem, and the real reason that I cannot please Domalicious with pinky. I can usually not last even a full minute before I will have to stop to keep from cumming when I am allowed to have sex with her. There are times when I cannot even last fifteen seconds after entering Master's pussy. I will have to stop and hold very still, Domalicious cannot move either, or I will cum. Sex with me is a lot of stop and go for Domalicious, and is probably not very pleasurable for her, certainly not like having sex with a real man like Master.
These are the reasons that I am a worthless sub and why Domalicious needs a real man like Master to pleasure her and fulfill her needs. I am helping to groom and prepare her tonight for a date tomorrow with Master. I am so excited that she will be pleasured by Master, and I hope that I will be allowed to worship Master's pussy afterward and to taste his presence there.
My endurance is the real problem, and the real reason that I cannot please Domalicious with pinky. I can usually not last even a full minute before I will have to stop to keep from cumming when I am allowed to have sex with her. There are times when I cannot even last fifteen seconds after entering Master's pussy. I will have to stop and hold very still, Domalicious cannot move either, or I will cum. Sex with me is a lot of stop and go for Domalicious, and is probably not very pleasurable for her, certainly not like having sex with a real man like Master.
These are the reasons that I am a worthless sub and why Domalicious needs a real man like Master to pleasure her and fulfill her needs. I am helping to groom and prepare her tonight for a date tomorrow with Master. I am so excited that she will be pleasured by Master, and I hope that I will be allowed to worship Master's pussy afterward and to taste his presence there.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Wishing for the whip.
I am happy to be owned by Master and Domalicious. This is such an interesting experience, with such intense feelings. My desire for Domalicious is off the chart right now, as is my desire to be physically dominated. I think because I am experiencing all these emotions I really feel the need to be beaten, or to worship my wife, or to be allowed to watch her and Master together, or something that is more physical. I guess there is so much going on in my head and heart that perhaps my body is feeling left out.
For the last several days I have felt the need to be beaten, not just a little discipline, but to be beaten into deep subspace. I wish that Domalicious could beat me until I was senseless, and then hold and cuddle me as I come back from subspace. I want to worship her as well, to inhale her fragrance, to touch her, and to taste her.
Domalicious belongs to Master now, as do I, and so it will be up to him what, if any, attention I get from her.
For the last several days I have felt the need to be beaten, not just a little discipline, but to be beaten into deep subspace. I wish that Domalicious could beat me until I was senseless, and then hold and cuddle me as I come back from subspace. I want to worship her as well, to inhale her fragrance, to touch her, and to taste her.
Domalicious belongs to Master now, as do I, and so it will be up to him what, if any, attention I get from her.
Saturday, February 18, 2012
another update
So...after Domalicious read my blog last night we talked, and I had misunderstood things before regarding Master's ownership of me. As I understand things right now, Master does still own me. As Domalicious pointed out I am her property and so his ownership of her includes me. How I am going to be dealt with by them is part of what they are discussing as they figure out the particulars of their relationship. I am very happy about this and I am looking forward to serving them both in whatever way they wish.
I had a lovely night with Domalicous last night, we talked and cuddled a lot, played a lot as well. I was and am feeling so happy in my submission to her. We stayed up way to late, and I am exhausted this morning, but it was well worth it. I love my wife.
I had a lovely night with Domalicous last night, we talked and cuddled a lot, played a lot as well. I was and am feeling so happy in my submission to her. We stayed up way to late, and I am exhausted this morning, but it was well worth it. I love my wife.
Friday, February 17, 2012
More changes
Just a quick update. Master and Domalicious' relationship has changed somewhat, they are still discussing what changes are going to take place, and what their new relationship will look like. I really don't have any details just yet, other than they are still together, Master still owns Domalicious. I am not sure what my status is right now, but I believe that I am not owned by Master currently and that Domalicious has total control over me (along with AlphaDomme of course).
I will try to update here as things become more clear.
I will try to update here as things become more clear.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Feeling well.
My heart and head are finally catching up with all the changes over the past week. I am getting a much better handle on my emotions. I am comfortable now, I am getting to know Master better, and getting things straight in my head. Yesterday and today I have not had any worries, and have been able to just enjoy the ride.
It is fun and exciting. I love seeing Domalicious so happy, and seeing her experience being a sub first hand is so much fun for me. It's all incredibly hot and erotic for me as well. I love the control that Master has taken in our relationship even though it tortures me at times. Not being able to kiss, or touch Domalicious without his permission is driving me crazy, I desire her so much, and it is so exciting for a masochist like me to be denied that physical access to my wife. At the same time I need to say that Master has been generous and has not taken the denial to a point that it is more than either Domalicious or I can handle.
Of course I know that Master will be increasing his control over us, but I am comfortable now that Master will not push us too far too fast. I believe he will push our limits, but my trust in him is growing and now I truly do feel comfortable and safe as his sub.
I was punished last night for having cum without permission a couple nights back. Domalicious used the dressage whip and the quirt pictured below on me.
It was a fairly intense punishment whipping, there was no warm up, and it definitely got my attention. It was also something I really needed, it was cathartic beside being punishing. I can still feel the fire of the dressage whip on my back. Thank you Master and Miss for this punishment.
Master was generous and allowed me to touch Domalicous last night. We cuddled, and I rubbed and kissed her back. Master had said that Domalicous could have intercourse with me if she wished. It was her choice and she chose not to. I am glad she made the choice she did, I think that both of us are truly beginning to love the fact that Master owns her body and to believe that it should be reserved for his pleasure.
I am still experiencing some very intense emotional moments, but yesterday and today, those moments have all been positive. I am very happy and content right now.
It is fun and exciting. I love seeing Domalicious so happy, and seeing her experience being a sub first hand is so much fun for me. It's all incredibly hot and erotic for me as well. I love the control that Master has taken in our relationship even though it tortures me at times. Not being able to kiss, or touch Domalicious without his permission is driving me crazy, I desire her so much, and it is so exciting for a masochist like me to be denied that physical access to my wife. At the same time I need to say that Master has been generous and has not taken the denial to a point that it is more than either Domalicious or I can handle.
Of course I know that Master will be increasing his control over us, but I am comfortable now that Master will not push us too far too fast. I believe he will push our limits, but my trust in him is growing and now I truly do feel comfortable and safe as his sub.
I was punished last night for having cum without permission a couple nights back. Domalicious used the dressage whip and the quirt pictured below on me.
It was a fairly intense punishment whipping, there was no warm up, and it definitely got my attention. It was also something I really needed, it was cathartic beside being punishing. I can still feel the fire of the dressage whip on my back. Thank you Master and Miss for this punishment.
Master was generous and allowed me to touch Domalicous last night. We cuddled, and I rubbed and kissed her back. Master had said that Domalicous could have intercourse with me if she wished. It was her choice and she chose not to. I am glad she made the choice she did, I think that both of us are truly beginning to love the fact that Master owns her body and to believe that it should be reserved for his pleasure.
I am still experiencing some very intense emotional moments, but yesterday and today, those moments have all been positive. I am very happy and content right now.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Domalicious is home
Domalicious is home now, her time with Master seems to have gone very well. Master told me that I should be very proud of her, and I am soooo proud of her. She has always been such a strong wife and Domme for me, and I know that she will be a strong sub for Master.
I did have a difficult time yesterday when I picked Domalicious up. Master had directed that I was not allowed to touch, hug, or kiss her until the evening. I was feeling a bit fragile, and really needed a hug, but I made it through and Domalicous held me and made me feel so much better last night once we were allowed to touch one another.
When he found out that I had been struggling with my feelings Master was very generous and allowed me to have intercourse with Domalicious last night. I am very grateful to him for that, it felt so wonderful to be inside her. I was reminded that she, her pussy, and all her holes do belong to him, and that I was only being allowed into his pussy through his generosity, and I truly am grateful to him for that. I wasn't able to do much more than just enter her, I was so worked up that I almost came just being inside her, but it still felt so good to be there, and to be a part of her, I needed that closeness. Knowing that I was in Master's property just heightened the excitement for me.
I am finding this new relationship to be a real emotional roller coaster for me. We have been involved in many cuckold relationships before, but the dynamic is so much different this time that it is raising many new feelings for me. I am euphoric at times, and scared at times. The euphoric times far out number the scary times, but both are very powerful.
I see Domalicious developing such strong feelings for Master, and I understand how powerful the feelings a sub has for her/his Dominant can be. That is what is scary for me. In all the previous cuckold relationships we have experienced I was never concerned that Domalicious' feelings for her partner would rival the feelings that she has for me. In this situation I am not so sure. I can see the possibility for her developing feelings for Master that are as strong as the feelings that she has for me.
This possibility is what I have been struggling with most since Domalicious first met Master. I am dealing with things much better now. I had a talk with Domalicious about this, and she reassured me. I also remembered a conversation I once had with a Domme and her sub/husband about this very subject.
To make a long story short, her husband had struggled with the same concerns when they had entered a somewhat similar cuckolding situation (she was not the "bull's" sub though) with a man that she developed very strong feelings for. What she explained to me was that just because she loved her "real man" as much as her sub did not mean she loved the sub any less than she had before the bull came into the relationship, or that she would ever let her sub go.
She told me that she loved her sub and the other man in different ways and that her sub was her forever sub, the love of her life, and she would never let him go. She also said that it was really hard to say that she loved the bull as much as the sub, or vice versa. She said that the love was different, and asked "how does one measure love anyway."
I discussed this with Domalicious last night, and she reassured me that this is the kind of place that I hold in her heart and that she will never let me go either. She told me that she has talked with Master about this and that Master would never try to separate us, and that she was very clear with him that I will always be her subhub. With the trust I have in Domalicious I feel much better after the talk we had last night.
I did have a difficult time yesterday when I picked Domalicious up. Master had directed that I was not allowed to touch, hug, or kiss her until the evening. I was feeling a bit fragile, and really needed a hug, but I made it through and Domalicous held me and made me feel so much better last night once we were allowed to touch one another.
When he found out that I had been struggling with my feelings Master was very generous and allowed me to have intercourse with Domalicious last night. I am very grateful to him for that, it felt so wonderful to be inside her. I was reminded that she, her pussy, and all her holes do belong to him, and that I was only being allowed into his pussy through his generosity, and I truly am grateful to him for that. I wasn't able to do much more than just enter her, I was so worked up that I almost came just being inside her, but it still felt so good to be there, and to be a part of her, I needed that closeness. Knowing that I was in Master's property just heightened the excitement for me.
I am finding this new relationship to be a real emotional roller coaster for me. We have been involved in many cuckold relationships before, but the dynamic is so much different this time that it is raising many new feelings for me. I am euphoric at times, and scared at times. The euphoric times far out number the scary times, but both are very powerful.
I see Domalicious developing such strong feelings for Master, and I understand how powerful the feelings a sub has for her/his Dominant can be. That is what is scary for me. In all the previous cuckold relationships we have experienced I was never concerned that Domalicious' feelings for her partner would rival the feelings that she has for me. In this situation I am not so sure. I can see the possibility for her developing feelings for Master that are as strong as the feelings that she has for me.
This possibility is what I have been struggling with most since Domalicious first met Master. I am dealing with things much better now. I had a talk with Domalicious about this, and she reassured me. I also remembered a conversation I once had with a Domme and her sub/husband about this very subject.
To make a long story short, her husband had struggled with the same concerns when they had entered a somewhat similar cuckolding situation (she was not the "bull's" sub though) with a man that she developed very strong feelings for. What she explained to me was that just because she loved her "real man" as much as her sub did not mean she loved the sub any less than she had before the bull came into the relationship, or that she would ever let her sub go.
She told me that she loved her sub and the other man in different ways and that her sub was her forever sub, the love of her life, and she would never let him go. She also said that it was really hard to say that she loved the bull as much as the sub, or vice versa. She said that the love was different, and asked "how does one measure love anyway."
I discussed this with Domalicious last night, and she reassured me that this is the kind of place that I hold in her heart and that she will never let me go either. She told me that she has talked with Master about this and that Master would never try to separate us, and that she was very clear with him that I will always be her subhub. With the trust I have in Domalicious I feel much better after the talk we had last night.
Monday, February 13, 2012
poor pinky
I was feeling so horny this morning. I awoke humping against the mattress, pinky would so love to be allowed inside Domalicious' pussy. Her pussy belongs to Master now though, and for that matter so does pinky. It is such a turn on to me to be denied that pleasure and honor. I do consider being allowed inside Domalicious an honor, and I have always thanked her when she allowed me to enter her. Now her pussy belongs to Master and even if she wants to have pinky inside her she cannot without his permission. Domalicious and I are both experiencing denial now, and it is such a turn on.
I had a difficult time falling asleep last night. Domalicous called me and told me about her experience with Master, she thought it was wonderful, and I am so happy for her. It didn't make it easy to sleep though, with thoughts of Master flogging and fucking her running through my mind. Domalicious told me last night that I was not allowed to touch pinky, that made it even more difficult to fall asleep, no wife beside me to stroke, and no permission to stroke pinky.
Fortunately, once I was able to fall asleep, I slept well until my fantasies awakened me this morning.
I had a difficult time falling asleep last night. Domalicous called me and told me about her experience with Master, she thought it was wonderful, and I am so happy for her. It didn't make it easy to sleep though, with thoughts of Master flogging and fucking her running through my mind. Domalicious told me last night that I was not allowed to touch pinky, that made it even more difficult to fall asleep, no wife beside me to stroke, and no permission to stroke pinky.
Fortunately, once I was able to fall asleep, I slept well until my fantasies awakened me this morning.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Been a wild couple of days.
A warning before you read on, this post may ramble, change direction without warning, or otherwise be difficult to follow. The last couple of days have seen so many changes for Domalicious and I. My brain and heart are still playing catch up. It is all so new I have not got a real handle on it all yet. That is partly why I am writing this post, to try to help me get a better handle on all these changes, so I apologize if it ends up being difficult to follow.
I got home a short time ago after taking Domalicious into the city to meet Master. They will be sharing a hotel, spending time getting to know one another better and of course Domalicious will get her first experience serving Master in person. Master has said that I will not be allowed to participate in their first several meetings as they get to know one another and establish their relationship. I am excited for Domalicous, and a bit nervous as well, I hope that it will all work out and that she will be okay.
I am not worried about her being unsafe with Master (well, okay I am just a tiny bit as I always am when she first spends alone time with a new guy), but I am worried that things will move to fast, that she may be overwhelmed, that the sub experience may be emotionally overwhelming for her. From what I have seen of Master I think that he will train her carefully and not give her more than she can handle, but as a sub I know how powerful those emotions can be. Domalicious is already experiencing how strong those emotions can be, she is already developing very strong feelings for Master. I am so in love with Domalicious and I just do not want to see her hurt.
Things are evolving very quickly, which I think is okay, it all feels right, but it is a bit scary too. I am so thrilled to see my wife/owner so happy, she is on cloud nine when she is serving Master. D/s relationships do seem to move faster than vanilla relationships, I suppose due to the way we must open ourselves up in a D/s situation, we get to know each other so intimately so much sooner. I just hope that it does not turn bad suddenly. I trust Domalicous and her judgement in these matters, and we have been discussing it a lot. I think that one thing we both feel strongly about is that, even if things do not work out in the end, this has already been an amazing experience.
I do believe that things will work out. I just have a feeling that all is right. As I said I trust Domalicious, she is a good judge of people and she seems to be very comfortable with Master. I have been allowed access to some of their chats as well and he truly seems like a quality, honorable man.
Something else that is a bit scary to me in this situation is that I am not allowed to know much of what is going on between them. This is something new, as in all her previous relationships Domalicious would allow and even encourage me to read her chats, emails, etc. To be kept in the dark is a bit scary, but I think I understand the need. They need to work on their relationship first and get it established before placing me in the mix. I am sure there is much for them to figure out together as this is the first time Domalicious has submitted to anyone, everything is new to her as well and she does not need to be trying to figure out how to deal with me right now. She needs to be concentrating on finding her place as Master's sub. Did I mentions this was complicated?
As I said earlier I truly love Domalicious and I do not want to see her hurt. The thing is that if this relationship continues there will be times when she will be hurt, and I will have to deal with it. I don't mean hurt in the physical sense, I know that she will experience physical pain at the hands of Master but I do not believe that Master would purposely injure her or give her more pain than he thinks she can handle even as punishment. I am worried about her being hurt emotionally. I am going to have to understand that they have a relationship with each other, respect that, and understand my role in the relationship as a whole. I want to be there to comfort her, but I am not really going to be in a position to interfere with her relationship with her Dom. I mean they are both Dominant over me, I just don't know how this will all play out. She is Masters sub and has chosen to give herself to him, I cannot interfere with that. I am truly beginning to understand what it means to be a sub, a real sub and to truly give up power. Will there be times when I cannot be my wife's protector out of respect for her relationship with Master? There is so much to think about here, and I think so much more to learn about myself, and my wife.
Although she is my wife and I her husband will I still be her primary? I suppose not, which is scary as hell for me. I mean I don't think I will ever lose her, but this is just so different from the poly relationships we have had in the past. She always had control in the past, she was always the Alpha. Now Master is the Alpha.
I think I have just had an epiphany, it is now about trusting Domalicious and in time it will be about truly trusting Master. I think that is what is worrying me so much right now, I don't know Master well enough now, but Domalicious does, and she trusts him. I trust Domalicious and have given myself completely to her, so I will follow her and continue to place my trust in her. I am sure as I get to know Master better that I will grow to trust him as she does as well. In the meantime I must be patient and trust in my owner.
I thought about removing some of the above post after realizing what the problem I was experiencing really was, but I think it is important that I let it stand. I do apologize to Domalicious, and to Master for my lack of trust, I think it is just that so much has happened so quickly that I kind of lost track of that most important part of my submission.
Well, as I was working through the above Domalicious came on chat, and we talked for awhile. She said that everything was going extremely well and that she was very happy! I am so relieved!
Since this relationship is still in it's infancy there is much I do not yet know as far as how the dynamics will actually work, but I know now I just need to be patient and allow it to develop with Master's and Domalicious' guidance. It is a bit scary to be in the dark about so much, but I think I have a better understanding of that now.
I got home a short time ago after taking Domalicious into the city to meet Master. They will be sharing a hotel, spending time getting to know one another better and of course Domalicious will get her first experience serving Master in person. Master has said that I will not be allowed to participate in their first several meetings as they get to know one another and establish their relationship. I am excited for Domalicous, and a bit nervous as well, I hope that it will all work out and that she will be okay.
I am not worried about her being unsafe with Master (well, okay I am just a tiny bit as I always am when she first spends alone time with a new guy), but I am worried that things will move to fast, that she may be overwhelmed, that the sub experience may be emotionally overwhelming for her. From what I have seen of Master I think that he will train her carefully and not give her more than she can handle, but as a sub I know how powerful those emotions can be. Domalicious is already experiencing how strong those emotions can be, she is already developing very strong feelings for Master. I am so in love with Domalicious and I just do not want to see her hurt.
Things are evolving very quickly, which I think is okay, it all feels right, but it is a bit scary too. I am so thrilled to see my wife/owner so happy, she is on cloud nine when she is serving Master. D/s relationships do seem to move faster than vanilla relationships, I suppose due to the way we must open ourselves up in a D/s situation, we get to know each other so intimately so much sooner. I just hope that it does not turn bad suddenly. I trust Domalicous and her judgement in these matters, and we have been discussing it a lot. I think that one thing we both feel strongly about is that, even if things do not work out in the end, this has already been an amazing experience.
I do believe that things will work out. I just have a feeling that all is right. As I said I trust Domalicious, she is a good judge of people and she seems to be very comfortable with Master. I have been allowed access to some of their chats as well and he truly seems like a quality, honorable man.
Something else that is a bit scary to me in this situation is that I am not allowed to know much of what is going on between them. This is something new, as in all her previous relationships Domalicious would allow and even encourage me to read her chats, emails, etc. To be kept in the dark is a bit scary, but I think I understand the need. They need to work on their relationship first and get it established before placing me in the mix. I am sure there is much for them to figure out together as this is the first time Domalicious has submitted to anyone, everything is new to her as well and she does not need to be trying to figure out how to deal with me right now. She needs to be concentrating on finding her place as Master's sub. Did I mentions this was complicated?
As I said earlier I truly love Domalicious and I do not want to see her hurt. The thing is that if this relationship continues there will be times when she will be hurt, and I will have to deal with it. I don't mean hurt in the physical sense, I know that she will experience physical pain at the hands of Master but I do not believe that Master would purposely injure her or give her more pain than he thinks she can handle even as punishment. I am worried about her being hurt emotionally. I am going to have to understand that they have a relationship with each other, respect that, and understand my role in the relationship as a whole. I want to be there to comfort her, but I am not really going to be in a position to interfere with her relationship with her Dom. I mean they are both Dominant over me, I just don't know how this will all play out. She is Masters sub and has chosen to give herself to him, I cannot interfere with that. I am truly beginning to understand what it means to be a sub, a real sub and to truly give up power. Will there be times when I cannot be my wife's protector out of respect for her relationship with Master? There is so much to think about here, and I think so much more to learn about myself, and my wife.
Although she is my wife and I her husband will I still be her primary? I suppose not, which is scary as hell for me. I mean I don't think I will ever lose her, but this is just so different from the poly relationships we have had in the past. She always had control in the past, she was always the Alpha. Now Master is the Alpha.
I think I have just had an epiphany, it is now about trusting Domalicious and in time it will be about truly trusting Master. I think that is what is worrying me so much right now, I don't know Master well enough now, but Domalicious does, and she trusts him. I trust Domalicious and have given myself completely to her, so I will follow her and continue to place my trust in her. I am sure as I get to know Master better that I will grow to trust him as she does as well. In the meantime I must be patient and trust in my owner.
I thought about removing some of the above post after realizing what the problem I was experiencing really was, but I think it is important that I let it stand. I do apologize to Domalicious, and to Master for my lack of trust, I think it is just that so much has happened so quickly that I kind of lost track of that most important part of my submission.
Well, as I was working through the above Domalicious came on chat, and we talked for awhile. She said that everything was going extremely well and that she was very happy! I am so relieved!
Since this relationship is still in it's infancy there is much I do not yet know as far as how the dynamics will actually work, but I know now I just need to be patient and allow it to develop with Master's and Domalicious' guidance. It is a bit scary to be in the dark about so much, but I think I have a better understanding of that now.
Some fun last night.
Master has directed me to post here about the time I was allowed to be involved with he and Domalicious last night, I hope my post will please him. I am afraid that I may leave something(s) out as it was all so emotionally and sexually charged that my head was spinning by the time he sent me off to sleep and some of last night seems a bit of a blur (in a good way).
Master and Domalicious had spent much of the day yesterday chatting online and on the phone, I was not really involved in any play until the evening, so I will begin then.
Domalicious called me into her room and told me that Master had ordered her to send him a picture of her breasts, I was to take the picture. I took the picture and she sent it to Master, who seemed pleased and commented on how much he was going to enjoy playing with her breasts and placing them in bondage. Master then ordered Domalicious to squeeze my cock and balls "fucking hard" and to remind me that he owns her, that she is his slut, that her pussy and all her holes belong to him. Domalicious did so, squeezing until I could not help but cry out from the pain, I was then sent to stand in the corner while they chatted some more.
A while later, I have no idea how much time had passed, Domalicious had me return to the bed and sit next to her. She grabbed my pinky and balls again and began squeezing them as she showed me a picture of Master's cock and balls and told me that "This is what a real man's cock looks like." She continued to squeeze telling me that it was the cock that would be fucking her pussy and ass and that she would be sucking from now on. I was so excited at the humiliation I was experiencing and at seeing the lust that Domalicious has for Masters wonderful cock. I was then sent back to the corner with orders to think about Master's cock and how he would be using it on my wife.
More time passed as I stood in the corner, I coiuld hear Domalicious occasionally giggle, moan now and then, and there was even an "Oh my God!" or two thrown in there. After a while I heard her get up from the bed, she came up behind me, and told me that Master was pissed that we lived so far away and that he could not be with his slut tonight. She told me that Master had directed her to punish me for this, and that I was to assume the position so that she could whip me. I forgot to mention earlier that Master had Domalicious send him a link to this blog, and that he had seen the picture of the black and purple whip that Domalicious uses on me.
That was the whip that he chose for her to punish me with, at least I think it was I didn't actually see the whip, but it felt like this one. She told me that this was punishment and there would be no warm up. She then gave me four hard lashes with the whip. Domalicous returned to the bed, and her conversation with Master while I remained in the corner.
It seemed like I was left in the corner quite a while this time, but it is hard to judge the passage of time when you are in that situation so I really don't know how long it had been when Domalicious called me back to the bed. She showed me the chat window that she had open for her chat with Master and I saw that he had said I was allowed to finger her and use the glass dildo on her. He said that he was pleased with the way I had quickly completed some tasks he and Domalicious had given me earlier in the day.
Domalicious got on her hands and knees, with her bottom up and I began to finger her. She was so incredibly wet and hot. I inserted two fingers and began fucking and working her pussy, gently at first but just for a moment since she was already so hot, and then began fucking her hard with my fingers. She was reminding me that she is Master's slut, that she belongs to him, that it was his pussy that I was fingering. I began using the glass dildo on her, soon had her on the verge of orgasm. She told me to stop, I didn't understand why, but then the phone rang. Master wanted to listen to her orgasm.
She picked up the phone and said hello to Master, and asked him if I could begin fucking her again. I began with my fingers, and soon she told me to use the dildo again. As I fucked her with the dildo she was moaning, and gasping, and telling Master that she was his property, telling him how much she wanted his cock, and to be with him. She rolled onto her back and continued to talk to Master. Her foot found my pinky and she told Master how excited and hard I was, she asked him if she could kick my balls as I fucked her for him. I couldn't hear but Master must have said yes as she began to kick my balls and pinky. She would rub pinky with her foot and then stomp on my balls.
It wasn't long before she asked Master for permission to cum. She began an incredible orgasm, she was cumming and cumming like I have never seen her cum. She was still rubbing pinky and stomping at my balls, and I got so excited I just lost it, began to cum myself. I unfortunately did not have permission to cum. Domalicous had orgasm after orgasm, I continued to fuck her for Master with the dildo. I would slow and gentle the fucking as she began to come down from one orgasm, but then suddenly ramp it up sending her into another. Domalicious had three or four orgasms, none of us, including her, were sure just how many she actually had.
I of course was (am) in trouble for having cum without permission, I licked my cum from Domalicious' foot, and from myself. I then cleaned up the dildo and Master told me to go to sleep while he and Domalicious talked more.
This was a wonderful session, I think we all enjoyed it very much. Even though I came I was still incredibly horny. Master said that I could sleep in bed with Domalicious but we were not allowed to kiss or touch each other the rest of the night. I think this drove us both a bit crazy, as we love to cuddle at night, and I usually rub her back to help her fall asleep. I found myself waking several times during the night, and had to keep reminding myself that I was not allowed to touch Domalicious. I was so restless during the night, fantasizing about serving Master and Domalicious.
I was so happy this morning when we awoke and Domalicious said that we were allowed to kiss.
Master and Domalicious had spent much of the day yesterday chatting online and on the phone, I was not really involved in any play until the evening, so I will begin then.
Domalicious called me into her room and told me that Master had ordered her to send him a picture of her breasts, I was to take the picture. I took the picture and she sent it to Master, who seemed pleased and commented on how much he was going to enjoy playing with her breasts and placing them in bondage. Master then ordered Domalicious to squeeze my cock and balls "fucking hard" and to remind me that he owns her, that she is his slut, that her pussy and all her holes belong to him. Domalicious did so, squeezing until I could not help but cry out from the pain, I was then sent to stand in the corner while they chatted some more.
A while later, I have no idea how much time had passed, Domalicious had me return to the bed and sit next to her. She grabbed my pinky and balls again and began squeezing them as she showed me a picture of Master's cock and balls and told me that "This is what a real man's cock looks like." She continued to squeeze telling me that it was the cock that would be fucking her pussy and ass and that she would be sucking from now on. I was so excited at the humiliation I was experiencing and at seeing the lust that Domalicious has for Masters wonderful cock. I was then sent back to the corner with orders to think about Master's cock and how he would be using it on my wife.
More time passed as I stood in the corner, I coiuld hear Domalicious occasionally giggle, moan now and then, and there was even an "Oh my God!" or two thrown in there. After a while I heard her get up from the bed, she came up behind me, and told me that Master was pissed that we lived so far away and that he could not be with his slut tonight. She told me that Master had directed her to punish me for this, and that I was to assume the position so that she could whip me. I forgot to mention earlier that Master had Domalicious send him a link to this blog, and that he had seen the picture of the black and purple whip that Domalicious uses on me.
That was the whip that he chose for her to punish me with, at least I think it was I didn't actually see the whip, but it felt like this one. She told me that this was punishment and there would be no warm up. She then gave me four hard lashes with the whip. Domalicous returned to the bed, and her conversation with Master while I remained in the corner.
It seemed like I was left in the corner quite a while this time, but it is hard to judge the passage of time when you are in that situation so I really don't know how long it had been when Domalicious called me back to the bed. She showed me the chat window that she had open for her chat with Master and I saw that he had said I was allowed to finger her and use the glass dildo on her. He said that he was pleased with the way I had quickly completed some tasks he and Domalicious had given me earlier in the day.
Domalicious got on her hands and knees, with her bottom up and I began to finger her. She was so incredibly wet and hot. I inserted two fingers and began fucking and working her pussy, gently at first but just for a moment since she was already so hot, and then began fucking her hard with my fingers. She was reminding me that she is Master's slut, that she belongs to him, that it was his pussy that I was fingering. I began using the glass dildo on her, soon had her on the verge of orgasm. She told me to stop, I didn't understand why, but then the phone rang. Master wanted to listen to her orgasm.
She picked up the phone and said hello to Master, and asked him if I could begin fucking her again. I began with my fingers, and soon she told me to use the dildo again. As I fucked her with the dildo she was moaning, and gasping, and telling Master that she was his property, telling him how much she wanted his cock, and to be with him. She rolled onto her back and continued to talk to Master. Her foot found my pinky and she told Master how excited and hard I was, she asked him if she could kick my balls as I fucked her for him. I couldn't hear but Master must have said yes as she began to kick my balls and pinky. She would rub pinky with her foot and then stomp on my balls.
It wasn't long before she asked Master for permission to cum. She began an incredible orgasm, she was cumming and cumming like I have never seen her cum. She was still rubbing pinky and stomping at my balls, and I got so excited I just lost it, began to cum myself. I unfortunately did not have permission to cum. Domalicous had orgasm after orgasm, I continued to fuck her for Master with the dildo. I would slow and gentle the fucking as she began to come down from one orgasm, but then suddenly ramp it up sending her into another. Domalicious had three or four orgasms, none of us, including her, were sure just how many she actually had.
I of course was (am) in trouble for having cum without permission, I licked my cum from Domalicious' foot, and from myself. I then cleaned up the dildo and Master told me to go to sleep while he and Domalicious talked more.
This was a wonderful session, I think we all enjoyed it very much. Even though I came I was still incredibly horny. Master said that I could sleep in bed with Domalicious but we were not allowed to kiss or touch each other the rest of the night. I think this drove us both a bit crazy, as we love to cuddle at night, and I usually rub her back to help her fall asleep. I found myself waking several times during the night, and had to keep reminding myself that I was not allowed to touch Domalicious. I was so restless during the night, fantasizing about serving Master and Domalicious.
I was so happy this morning when we awoke and Domalicious said that we were allowed to kiss.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
An interesting turn of events.
The times they are a changing, and perhaps so is the direction of this Blog at least somewhat. Domalicious recently decided to look for a new guy, and she has found one. The interesting thing is that the new man in her life is a Dom. He is now her, and my, Master.
Domalicious had told me before that she thought she may be a switch, and she had even played around a bit "subbing" to one of her guys who was a switch himself, though she always directed the action. it was always just a role play situation. Oh, how things have changed in the last couple of days.
She met our Master online and began chatting with him, they really hit it off, and so last night they met in person. They seem to have very good chemistry, and Domalicious is very excited by all of this. She seems to be really getting into being Master's sub. I am as well I must admit.
Domalicious and Master spent a couple of hours together last night, I briefly met him, but they apparently were both very pleased with their meeting. The chemistry was so right, and they felt so good about each other that Master has already taken ownership of her. They have been chatting a great deal online since then, as well as speaking on the phone, and the relationship is taking shape and evolving quickly.
Domalicious now belongs to Master, I belong to them both. Domalicous' body is Master's, I have no rights to it. As I understand it I will probably not be allowed to have intercourse with Domalicous anymore. If Master approves I may be allowed to touch her and to worship her orally. She is now Master's plaything, he may direct her, use her, and punish her as he pleases.
Adendum 02/12/12: Master wished me to be more specific regarding his ownership of Domalicious' body and to clarify that her pussy and all her holes belong to him now.
This is very exciting to both Domalicous and I, she is discovering a side of herself that she really did not recognize before. I am finding it incredibly erotic, as well as interesting and sometimes amusing. I love watching as Domalicous takes her first steps on the journey of submission. It it exciting to see how it thrills her, it is amusing to watch her confronted with situations that put a sub on the spot, just like I have dealt with for years as her sub, and see her deal with them.
As for me; well I am so excited and turned on by all this that I have been able to think of little else for the past 24 hours. I could hardly sleep last night, and have spent much of today with pinky erect as I thought and fantasized about my new role as the sub of a sub. There is so much fodder for fantasizing in this situation I find myself in, I will have to be careful that I do not get lost in fantasy land.
Domalicious had told me before that she thought she may be a switch, and she had even played around a bit "subbing" to one of her guys who was a switch himself, though she always directed the action. it was always just a role play situation. Oh, how things have changed in the last couple of days.
She met our Master online and began chatting with him, they really hit it off, and so last night they met in person. They seem to have very good chemistry, and Domalicious is very excited by all of this. She seems to be really getting into being Master's sub. I am as well I must admit.
Domalicious and Master spent a couple of hours together last night, I briefly met him, but they apparently were both very pleased with their meeting. The chemistry was so right, and they felt so good about each other that Master has already taken ownership of her. They have been chatting a great deal online since then, as well as speaking on the phone, and the relationship is taking shape and evolving quickly.
Domalicious now belongs to Master, I belong to them both. Domalicous' body is Master's, I have no rights to it. As I understand it I will probably not be allowed to have intercourse with Domalicous anymore. If Master approves I may be allowed to touch her and to worship her orally. She is now Master's plaything, he may direct her, use her, and punish her as he pleases.
Adendum 02/12/12: Master wished me to be more specific regarding his ownership of Domalicious' body and to clarify that her pussy and all her holes belong to him now.
This is very exciting to both Domalicous and I, she is discovering a side of herself that she really did not recognize before. I am finding it incredibly erotic, as well as interesting and sometimes amusing. I love watching as Domalicous takes her first steps on the journey of submission. It it exciting to see how it thrills her, it is amusing to watch her confronted with situations that put a sub on the spot, just like I have dealt with for years as her sub, and see her deal with them.
As for me; well I am so excited and turned on by all this that I have been able to think of little else for the past 24 hours. I could hardly sleep last night, and have spent much of today with pinky erect as I thought and fantasized about my new role as the sub of a sub. There is so much fodder for fantasizing in this situation I find myself in, I will have to be careful that I do not get lost in fantasy land.
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