It has been a while since my last blog, I thought I should update things a bit. Ms Exotic and I are are doing quite nicely, enjoying each other and the life we share. We are still very busy, thus we have not been able to spend much time on Men Submit or other FLR sites recently. I do check in often, but haven't had the time or energy to participate as much as I wish I could.
I had a wonderful little play session with Ms Exotic last night, my God that woman can turn me inside out with just a word or a touch. I really needed it last night too. The holidays have been very hectic, wonderful but hectic, and then I had a very stressful evening. It was such a relief to get home, get the few chores I had to do completed, and then just sit and unwind for a bit. I was so tired when we went to bed, yet I had such desire to touch my wife, and to experience her touch.
I love the way she touches me, sometimes such gentle caresses, and sometimes blessing me with the pain I love to suffer for her. I never know what is coming next, the loving caress will often turn into a loving swat. She may run her fingers across my chest in such a soft gentle manner, and then suddenly grab my nipple twisting and pulling as if she will rip it from my chest. There is always an air of suspense when she is touching me. If she strokes pinky and my balls I never know if the gentle stroking will continue, stop abruptly, or if she will suddenly grab and squeeze my balls until I cry out in pain. Our sex life is never boring.
She teased me so much last night, both with her touch and with her words, it was excrutiatingly wonderful.
Having a partner who knows me so well is such a wonderful blessing. I am able to share so much of myself with her, to offer myself to her so completely knowing that she will accept me. This may be the most wonderful part of a FLR involving kink. We both get so much from this relationship and share our love for one another in so many ways. There was a recent post on the forums at Men Submit regarding love in BDSM relationships, to me the kink we share is just another way of expressing our love much like my service and devotion to her. When she paddles or spanks me, subjects pinky and the boys to torture, or subjects me to tease and denial, it is all out of love. I suppose this is very difficult for non-kink people to understand, but I feel her love in all these things, and I hope that she feels my love in my acceptance of the pain and frustration.
