Been busy

It has been a while since I posted a blog, once again life gets in the way.  It seems difficult to find the time to write, and when I have had time I have not felt like writing.  Domalicious gave me a smack on the behind though and told me I needed to update my blog, so I will do my best.

I am not going to say much about Domalicious and Master in this post.  They have been working through some issues in their relationship.  They seem to be getting things worked out, I am happy for them and I do hope that they will be able to continue to find ways so that both their needs will be met.

Domalicious continues to recover, it is a long, slow process.  She gets frustrated at times, between pain, and just not being able to do the things she wants to do.  I think she is making remarkable progress, but Domalicious is not exactly known for her patience.

I thought I would write about the play session Domalicious and I had last night.  She was chatting with Master online, and she had me fingering Master's pussy.  She told me to go get her strap-on and put it on.  She and master got on webcam and she had me fuck her while Master watched.  I went at her pretty hard, in a couple different positions.  Master seemed to enjoy the show, he was stroking his cock as he watched.  Domalicious then sent me to the corner, I could hear her and Master talking as he stroked until he came.

After master went to bed Domalicious played with me a bit more.  She pinched and twisted my nipples until they were quite tender, teased and tortured pinky and my balls a bit, and then gave me a good whipping with the rawhide quirt.  It was a reward whipping since I had been behaving fairly well.  She would whip me until I asked her for a moment to re-group, allow me to rest until I was ready for more, and then whip me more.  She would ask if I wanted the next set harder, lighter, or the same.  I asked for harder each time, we both wanted me to be marked.  I was quite tender after it was all done, but unfortunately didn't retain any marks today.  I wish I would bruise easier, or that I was stronger and could take a harder beating, because I thought she was really smacking me and was sure I would have some marks this morning.  I will just have to try to be stronger next time.

So worth it.

Domalicious is with Master today, I am so happy for her.  I chatted online with her a while ago, she said she was happy and having lots of fun.  I hope that they will both enjoy their time together.  I wish I could be with them, but this is their time.  Domalicious said that Master was sending me some pictures to taunt me, I am so looking forward to seeing them

While this all pushes my masochistic buttons and turns me on, what I want most out of this cuckolding relationship is for Domalicious to be happy.  I love the way she lights up when I come home, and I love the way she lights up when she sees her Master, or even when she is chatting with him online.  It gives me such joy that Master is able to give her those things that I cannot and that she is able to experience so much pleasure and joy.  Master can give her many gifts that I cannot, I can give her many gifts that Master cannot, and I believe that Domalicous deserves all these gifts.

In turn Domalicious shares many gifts and her heart with both Master and I.  I have said it before and I will say it again, Master and I are very lucky men.

As for my heart, it is exclusively Domalicious'.  It belongs to her and her alone.  Master owns me, and I like and respect Master very much, but my heart belongs to Domalicious.  AlphaDomme owns me as well, Domalicious has given her partial ownership rights over me.  I love AlphaDomme, she is wonderful, but my heart belongs to Domalicious.

There was someone who commented on a blog I had posted on Men Submit who said they felt sad for me.  The blog was about Master and Domalicious' relationship, and how it made me feel in the beginning, how hard it was for me at first to share Domalicious' heart, and  how I was growing as a sub because of it.  I sure don't want anyone to feel sad for me.  The intensity of my feelings have caused me to struggle at times in the early part of this relationship, but it has caused me to grow and learn so much as well.  It has given me so much joy as I have discovered new depths of love and submission to my wife, and seen my wife make new discoveries about herself and us as well.  I feel that this relationship has been a great journey, and I am excited to continue forward.

Cuckolding is obviously not for everyone, but for a few of us it is enlightening, joyful, and fulfilling.  It is not always easy to make a journey like this.  It can be very difficult and even a bit scary to break down your emotions and really look closely at them, but for me it is worth it, oh so worth it.

some humiliation last night

Unfortunately Domalicious ended up not feeling well enough to meet Master the other evening, she was quite sad about that.  She is still recovering and has bad days and better days, but it seems she is making progress.

Master and Domalicious played with me a bit last night, and Master directed me to post about it here.  It was quite a humiliating experience, and of course having to post about it here is even more humiliating.

Domalicious had told me yesterday morning that Master had decided that they would play with me a bit in the evening.  She told me that my sissy hole would be fucked, and that I would be allowed to put pinky in Master's pussy.  Of course, even though I was very tired all day, I was very excited thinking about both those things.  I love having my ass fucked, and have been sooo missing being inside Domalicious.  By evening I was very wound up.

Domalicious and Master were chatting online, when Domalicious had me get undressed and lay on the bed beside her.  She told me to start stroking pinky, and asked me what I wanted to put in my sissy hole.  I really wanted to try this big white dildo we have, but Domalicious thought it was too soon for me to try something that big.  I ended up with the small vibrator she had used on me last time, it felt so good.  I love having my sissy hole filled, it excites me so much.  I was laying there edging pinky, with that vibrator going at full speed in my sissy hole, when Master and Domalicious decided it was time for the real humiliation to begin.

Domalicious turned on her webcam, and got it situated so that Master could see us.  I was supposed to stick pinky inside her, she wanted Master to see how pathetic I am at intercourse.  Well pinky was not being very cooperative.

I am not sure what it is, but I have a hard time getting pinky hard when Master is watching.  I get very excited, pinky will be dripping precum like crazy, but he doesn't seem to want to get hard.  Domalicious thinks he is intimidated by Master's big cock, which may be the case.  I was so excited that I was on the edge of cumming without even getting hard, that was extremely humiliating.  I could see Master laughing and shaking his head.  Domalicious even sucked on pinky a bit, something that very rarely happens, but that didn't help, I was still on the verge of cumming without being hard.  Finally she gave pinky and my balls a good hard swat, and that did the trick, he got hard.

Domalicious moved so I could enter her, and I was able to make about two feeble strokes inside her before I came with her and Master both laughing at me.  It was a very intense orgasm for me, I still had the vibrator in my sissy hole, and I was so humiliated to have Master watching.

I licked my cum out of Master's pussy, well most of it, there was some on the bed as well which she had me lick up.  It was all very humiliating, Master and Domalicious were both laughing at me, and joking about how quickly I came.

Domalicious had me put some nipple clamps on, and one of her night gowns.  She told me to go clean the vibrator and put it away.  After I had done that she had me remove the nipple clamps, and when Master excused me sent me off to bed in her nighty.  She gave me a kiss and told me that she loves her sissy.

It was all very exciting to me, and I am feeling very sub this morning even though I was allowed to cum last night.

Thank you sooo much Master for allowing me to put pinky inside your pussy, I know my performance was pathetic, but it did feel so very good to be allowed inside my wife again.  I am very grateful

I have a few marks.

Domalicious did give me a bit more whipping last night, and she was able to mark me a bit, hooray!  She was webcamming with Master, and wanted to show him her rawhide quirt and allow him to see it in action on me.  She placed me where Master could watch over the webcam.  She gave me a few good hard swats, and then asked me how hard a swat I could handle on a scale of one to ten.  I told her an eight, which she gave me.  She asked again, and I told her a nine, she gave me a nine, and Domalicious does hit hard.  It was great for me but unfortunately it hurt her shoulder a bit so that was the end of the whipping.  She did leave some nice marks though, so I am very happy about that, I hope she is as well.  Poor Domalicious though, I got a heating pad on her shoulder, and some pain killers.  She is doing better this morning, but obviously she is not quite up to whipping that hard yet.

Master and Domalicious are going to see each other tonight, I am quite excited.  I won't be allowed to be with them, but I am happy that they will have some time together at least.  Domalicious has been missing her Master.

Deeper submission.

I had a really intense experience last night at the hands of Domalicious and I am experiencing some really powerful emotions from it.

I think that I should explain first that there have been some changes in how Domalicious relates to me since she has submitted to Master.  This seems to be a result of her experiencing being a sub.  Since she is now a sub herself she has a whole new perspective on what a sub feels and goes through.  She has become more outwardly dominant towards me, or perhaps I should say more demonstrably dominant.  Things that she used to find somewhat silly and be bothered by, such as some of the D/s protocol, she is now embracing and expecting from me.  I like these changes very much, but it is definitely an adjustment for me.  I am having to sort of re-learn what she expects from me.  She has also been disciplining me more physically, which of course I love.

Last night she had me lay across the bed, she had the rawhide quirt in her hand, and I thought "alright a nice whipping will feel great right now."  She didn't say anything but just all of a sudden started whipping me very hard.  There was no warm up, she didn't say I was being punished for anything, she just started smacking that thing across my ass freaking hard.  Now it wasn't as hard as she is capable of, but it was definitely beyond my comfort level at that point.

I didn't understand why she was hitting me so hard, I thought I must have really screwed something up, and I became very upset.  I took the beating as best I could, but I started crying and trying to tell her I didn't understand.  After a bit, it seemed like forever, she asked me how many more I could take.  In my head I was thinking no more, but I just was crying and telling her I didn't understand.  She asked if I wanted twenty five, or three, or zero, or how many more I thought I could take.  I told her five more which she gave to me.

At this point the tears were really flowing and I was trying to tell her that I didn't understand.  She came down on the bed next to me and held me and told me she loved me.  She stroked me and held me and then explained that she was marking me as her property, that she wanted my bottom to carry her mark.  At that point I felt badly that I hadn't asked for more.

I have still been very emotional today, I was really confused while she was whipping me.  I was so upset thinking that I must have done something really bad to make her or Master angry enough that she would whip me like that.  Then, when I found out why she was doing it, I felt badly that I hadn't taken more.

I am still not sure what to make of this, it was just so intense.  It has made me feel very submissive today, and very needy, I can't get enough of hugging and holding Domalicious.  I am proud that I stayed there, behaved myself, and took the whipping like a good sub.  I wish I had understood from the beginning what she was doing, but that was a part of it I suppose, in a way a test of my submission to her.

Anyway, it was a very intense experience for me, the bad news is I still didn't really mark.  I do have a couple small bruises, but not what she was hoping for.  I have never bruised easily, so hopefully she will try again soon, maybe tonight, and if so I will hopefully better understand what is happening and not get so emotional and upset about it.

I am a contented sub.

Domalicious gave me a lovely time last night, after which I was able to get a decent nights sleep, this makes me a very happy sub this morning.

Domalicious gave me very nice beating last night.  She warmed me up very well, and used several different implements on me.  I am not at all sure what she used, I know she used a dressage whip, my belt, her hand, there were some other things as well, but I am not sure what.  I was just laying with my face down enjoying things, trying not to squirm too much, and trying to be somewhat quiet so I didn't see what else was used.  It was truly lovely and something I was really in need of.

After the beating she used a dildo on my sissy hole.  That was sooo nice, and something she has not done before.  I am not new to having my sissy hole fucked.  That was a big part of my training with the woman I belonged to before I met Domalicious, but it has been over ten years since I had been fucked, I missed it.  It felt so good.  I am obviously out of training though, I thought she was using a fairly large dildo, but afterward I saw it it was one of the smallest we have.  I was a bit surprised that it had made me feel so full, since at one time I was able to take a fist in my behind.

When Domalicious was done playing with me I was allowed to stimulate and finger Master's pussy.  So nice...I so love making my wife feel good and after all the play she had given me it was even more special.

When all the play was done Domalicious sent me to the other room to sleep and I was able to sleep a good six hours.  Sleep has been a bit hard to come by around here lately so that was a special treat as well.

Thank you Miss for everything last night, I am very grateful; and I am a very contented sub.

Happy St Patrick's Day!

I finally managed to get some rest last night!!!  It is so nice, I am still not truly rested, but am so much better than I have been the past week or two.  Domalicious is recovering, still has quite a bit of pain, but we have hope now.

As I mentioned in my last post I am no longer allowed intercourse with Domalicious, I am finding that this is an  interesting situation.  I want so much to be able to put pinky inside her, to feel her around me, to be one with her in that way.  I miss that very much.  However it also brings out feelings in me that I love.

I feel so deeply submitted to Master and Domalicious.  Knowing that her pussy belongs to him, and that I am not allowed inside it anymore makes me feel so owned.  It is incredibly erotic in a way.  I am also getting to do some lovely oral worship, and that is just so fantastic.  I have always loved to worship her pussy and now it is even more erotic for me knowing that it is Master's pussy and that his big cock has been inside it, and will be again, is so exciting to me.  I am so looking forward to seeing him fuck his pussy again and I hope that I will be allowed to lick his cum from it once more.

While I still feel jealous at times I am managing it much better.  The jealousy seems to be a good thing now, it is exciting in its own way, and I think it helps keep me more aware of just how lucky I am to be Domalicious' husband and sub.  The jealousy still hurts somewhat, but it is not like it was a few weeks ago when I was afraid that Master might take over Domalicious' heart and that she might not love me as much anymore.  Now I am feeling more comfortable that even though she loves Master there is always a special place in her heart for me.  He is her Master and her real man, but I will always be her subhub.