Things are going well.

Everything continues to go well with me, I am feeling more and more comfortable with Domalicious' submission to Master.  I think I am learning some things about submission, and about myself.  My submission is deepening, and I am falling further in love with my wife and owner.  My comfort level and acceptance with Master being the Alpha in this relationship is growing, I feel like this is a good fit for me as a sub.  I believe that there will be difficult times for me still, but I think I am coming to a better understanding of my jealousy and I hope that I will be able to deal with it better in the future.

I was thinking about my jealousy today, and about the difference between this relationship and the cuckolding relationships Domalicious and I have experienced in the past.  The big difference this time is the feelings that Domalicious has for Master.  None of the men that she played with in the past brought out such strong feelings in her.  There was one man she cared for, but Master is the first man she has loved.  I realized that in the past I have shared Domalicious' body with other men, but this time I am sharing her heart as well.  I have found that sharing her heart is much more difficult for me than sharing her body, but the past few days I have begun to really embrace this part of her relationship with Master.  It makes me happy that Master can be for her what I cannot, and that she can experience this depth of feeling and emotion with him.

As I have come to embrace the feelings that Domalicious has for Master my submission to, and desire for, her has grown incredibly.  We seem to be growing closer and closer.  As my submission grows so does my vulnerability, and I am finding that I like that feeling.  I feel like Domalicious holds my very being in her hand. My body, my mind, my heart, all of me is hers.  I wish to be in her presence every minute of every day, and when I am I wish to be naked, not just my body, but my heart as well.

I suppose that what I have written above may seem strange to most people, but the intensity of my feelings of submission to my wife are almost overwhelming, and I just don't know how else to describe it.

Along with Domalicious' and Master's relationship, and the emotions that it has brought forth in me, is a need for reassurance from Domalicious.  I suppose that I should not need so much reassurance, but I do.  I need to be close to Domalicious, I love to just touch her, rub her back or feet, or to just sit holding her and smell her hair or skin.  I have also been feeling the need to have something tangible to remind me of her, and her ownership of me, when I cannot be with her.  We have discussed in the past coming up with something, perhaps a necklace that I can wear as a collar.  I think that she is going to give me something like that soon and I am very excited about it.

The gifts of life.

The past couple of days have gone pretty well for me.  I have had a few jealous moments, and I have been a bit sensitive about my status a time or two, but all in all I am feeling very good about things.  This is an incredible experience, and I am truly glad to be a part of it.  I cannot really find words to express how this all makes me feel, but I would not want it any other way.

As a masochistic sub I am absolutely in heaven.  This experience seems to be deepening my submission in a profound way.  Perhaps with time I will be able to better express what I am feeling.  I live and breathe Domalicious right now.  She is my reason for being.  It is so hard for me to be away from her right now, not all due to her relationship with Master, but that is certainly a big part of it.  When I am home I just want to be with her, and I mean with her.  I want to be touching her, or as near her as I can be.  I love my work, and enjoy going out and doing other things, but honestly right now I would much rather be with her every minute of every day.  I have been afraid that I may be getting too clingy for her, but she has assured me that I am not, and that she is enjoying the level of attention I am giving her.

The jealousy and sensitivity I experience at times can be really hard to deal with.  I am finding this arises mostly when I am tired and/or stressed.  I get a bit fragile then and things that wouldn't bother me at other times can really hurt me.  I am beginning to believe though that even this occasional emotional pain is good in its own way.  I am finding that I have a love/hate relationship with this pain just as I do with the pain of a whip or cane.  There are times when I just feel like crying, and I am not a crying kind of guy.  Somehow though I think that this pain is not all bad.  Again this is all so new to me and I really can't express how it makes me feel yet.

I do believe that this emotional pain is going to be a part of a cuckolding relationship such as the one we are currently engaged in, and I would definitely not recommend that such a relationship be entered into lightly.  Domalicious and I are experienced with cuckolding, but we have definitely taken it to a new level with this current situation.I am coming to love it more and more though.

Sometimes I wonder what it is that makes me the way I am.  Why do I crave this pain.  Why do I get so excited being humiliated by my wife and her Master.  Of course a big part of my enjoyment of this is knowing that Domalicious loves me so much.  The pain that she inflicts on me is inflicted with love, it is just a different way of loving from what is considered the "norm".

I love this pain as well because it is something that I can suffer for Domalicious.  It is a way for me to show her my love.  I can give this to her as a gift and as a sign of my devotion.  I love to see how happy she is with Master, and even though it may make me jealous at times it also gives great joy.

Of course most of this experience is not painful at all, instead it is erotic and incredibly hot, if you are a masochistic sub that is.  Actually I don't think I would have to be a masochistic sub to enjoy seeing how happy and fulfilled my wife is.  Master gives Domalicious much that I am not able to give her, and it makes me incredibly happy that she is able to enjoy all these gifts of life.

Last night Master and Domalicious were playing a bit on video chat over the computer and I was allowed to be in the room with Domalicious.  It was so exciting for me to see how turned on she is by Master and the joy she is finding in being his sub.  Of course when she gets so turned on it is good for me since I am the one there with her and Master is being generous in allowing her to play with me quite a bit.

She was posing for Master last night over the video chat, and they were talking, they were teasing and humiliating me as well.  They teased me about how small pinky is and how well Master is endowed.  Master made a joke, I can't remember just what it was, but something about how pinky could not even fill a thimble, which just cracked Domalicious up.  It was so hot for me to hear her laughing at his joke, and at me, like that.

Domalicous wanted to show Master her favorite spanking implement, the rawhide quirt I have mentioned before here.  She showed it to Master and then had me lay across the bed and gave me a few stripes with it.  She must have wanted to impress Master because she put a lot of energy into them, I have some pretty good marks still.  I will post the picture of the quirt again below, it is a vicious thing when Domalicious wishes it to be.

After they were done Master gave her permission for me to worship his pussy.  It was so wonderful, she used her queening stool and allowed me to worship her.  While I was worshiping she was reminding me that it is Master's pussy now, and that I had better be sure to thank Master for allowing me to worship it.

We cuddled afterward and it was such a wonderful feeling to be her sub.  I was and am so happy that I belong to her.

Her sub, her sissy, her boy.

Since Domalicious and Master became a couple I have been feeling more sub than ever before.  I have discussed it with Domalicious and tried to explain to her that I feel almost like a sissy, not the dress up in a french maid outfit kind of sissy, just less like a "real man".  I fell more like her sub, her boy, her sissy, and I think that I understand why now.  I am not sure why I didn't understand it better before because it seems so obvious, I suppose I have just been so overwhelmed by things of late that I just didn't get it.

I think that the reason I feel more like her sissy now is that she has a real man in Master.  She does not need me to try to fill that roll for her now.  In the past I have always tried to be her real man as well as her sub.  I was not always (perhaps ever) very successful at it, but I did try.

Other than romantically I was, and still am, her real man.  I am her shoulder to lean on, her strong support, her partner in life.  Romantically we do share something very, very special, but I have never been good at being her "man".  I don't know if I am explaining this in a way that others can understand, but I think that Domalicious and perhaps AlphaDomme will.  I am not good at romance, I love Domalicious more than anyone else could possibly love her, but I just am not a romantic man, and in bed I am inadequate at intercourse.  I have always had to find other ways to please her sexually.

Even with the other cuckolding situations we have been involved with, none really fulfilled this need for Domalicious.  A couple of them were great sexually, but they still were not able to be her "real man".  She did not have the feelings for them like she does for Master and so I don't think that they could possibly have met her needs.

Now that Domalicious belongs to Master she is getting many of her romantic and sexual needs fulfilled by him.  Master is her "real man", and I am able to just be free to be her sub.  I can love and worship her as a sub more completely now, I am not trying to be something I am not.  I can make her feel like a Goddess, and Master can make her feel like his woman.  That was actually a little hard to write, because she is my woman as well, and I hope I make her feel like my woman, but it is in a different way from Master.  (Damn jealousy)

So now I can be Domalicious' sub, her sissy, her boy.  She is getting her need for a "real man" met by Master and so I am free to just be me.  This makes me very happy, I always have felt badly that I could not be the man that Domalicious needs in that way.  I have always felt like a bit of a failure when it came to being her man.  Now that I am able to just be who I am, I am being so much more romantic with her, I think that she is much happier with me.  It is a bit ironic, I am being romantic as her sissy/sub, while I could not be romantic as her man.  It is a little different kind of romance, but I think she likes it.

One man's Goddess is another man's slut.

I woke up this morning wanting Domalicious so desperately.  I desired her so much, I wanted to worship her, I wanted to hold her and to be held by her.  I love Domalicious with all my being, a look or a touch from her will cause me to shudder with joy and delight.  She is like a Goddess to me, she is my love.

To Master Domalicious is his sub, his toy, his slut.  I know that she pleases him.  He cares about her very much, I have no idea the depth of his feelings for her, but I know her respects and cares for her very much.

I find it very interesting that Domalicious can be so happy, and is so good at, being both my Goddess and Master's slut at the same time.  She is such an incredible woman, Master and I are both very lucky men.

What a great day!

Just as I had posted my last blog Master and Domalicious came back into the room.  they had brought me some food, and they lay down on the bed and began playing again.  Again it was very exciting, and I was allowed to kind of hold, and support Domalicious as Master was making love to her.

Domalicious and I are back home now, we talked a lot on the drive home, and we are both very happy.  This was a great day, I had some worries that being there while Master and Domalicious played might be difficult for me, but it wasn't.  It was absolutely freaking fantastic.

This experience made me realize a thing or two, or perhaps more accurately it really brought them home for me.  It made me feel really inadequate when it comes to performing penetrative sex.  This makes me feel kind of sad, but Domalicious and I discussed it a bit and I know that I can do much else to please her and that she is happy with me as her lover.  It also really drove home to me how much of a sub I am.  One other thing is that it truly convinced me of the veracity of my "subsexual" theory.  I will perhaps go into these things in more detail later, but I am just too tired right now.

I just want to thank Master and Domalicious once again for allowing me to be a part of this today, it was unbelievably wonderful for me and made me so happy.

That was fun!

I am writing this on Domalicious' computer from the motel room that she and Master are sharing.  They have just come out of the bath and are getting ready to go out, I will be remaining here.  This has been a great experience, it was so exciting and so much fun.

I brought Domalicous here earlier this morning and dropped her off.  I ran over to a fast food place to get her some breakfast, by the time I returned to the room she and Master were already in bed.  It was pretty funny, I hadn't been gone ten minutes, Master was not even there yet when I left, and by the time I returned with the breakfast sandwiches they were naked and in bed.  I guess they had been missing each other!

Unfortunately I had an appointment this morning, so I had to leave right away after dropping Domalicious' breakfast off, but that was probably good.  It gave Master and Domalicious a chance to be together without having the annoying sub around.

When I returned from my appointment Master was not there, but Domalicious said he would be returning soon.  I watched as she got ready for him, and was able to help with a couple of little things.  Things got very exciting upon Master's return.  Domalicious was naked, wearing a chain harness that Master likes, stockings, and elbow length gloves.  Master came into the room and kissed Domalicious so passionately.

Master had Domalicious undress him, and sent me to sit in a chair across the room.  They got onto the bed and began making love, it was so exciting to watch.  Master was was kissing Domalicious, caressing her breasts, pinching and tugging her nipples.  I don't think I need go into too much detail here, but they were making love, and Master would give Domalicious an occasional swat.  Master would ask Domalicious who her pussy belonged to and she would say "It belongs to you Master!"  They both made it very clear to me that she is Master's property.

After a while they told me to strip down to my underwear, and Domalicious asked if pinky was hard, he was very hard.  They had me move closer to the bed, and then Domalicious had me take pinky out of my underwear so that Master could see how small and pathetic he is.  I think Master was surprised that pinky was so small.  Pinky was not erect then, and pinky does look very small when flaccid.  Master commented that he understood why Domalicious could not be pleased by pinky and why she punishes him and my balls so often.

They were making love, and Master was so good, he was able to last so long, and Domalicous looked like she was in heaven as Master drove his big cock into her pussy.  He continued to give her a swat, or pinch her nipples now and then.  At one point he put his finger up her ass, I thought I might lose it right then, it was so hot.

I have no idea how long this lasted, but eventually they sent me into the bathroom so that they could enjoy each other in private.  Master did call me back at one point to bring them a bottle of water since they were getting thirsty.  I was able to hear the sounds of them making love from the bathroom, but I couldn't make out actual words most of the time, only when they would get really loud.  Domalicious had ordered that I not touch pinky while I was in the bathroom, that was so difficult, pinky was dripping precum like crazy.  I did pinch and play with my nipples a bit, I could not stand just sitting there, I had to do something.

The next thing that happened was when I heard Master cum, it sounded so intense, I wish I would have been allowed to watch it.  Master and Domalicious then called me back into the bedroom and had me kneel at the end of the bed.  Domalicious moved down to the end and lay back spreading her legs.  I could see Master's cum in her pussy, it was dripping out and a little was dribbling down toward her anus.  Domalicious told me to lick Master's cum from his pussy.  I thanked Master and Domalicious and absolutely dove in.  It was a fantasy come true for me, it was so incredible, I hope I will be allowed to do that very very often in the future.    It tasted so good, the combination of Domalicious' pussy and Master's cum, and it felt so right for me to be there, cleaning up as they watched and teased me.  Domalicious let me lick her for awhile, and let me lick her asshole as well, I never wanted to stop, I wish I was still licking her now.

She did stop me though, and she and Master have bathed and gone out together.  I have made the bed, and she wanted me to blog about this while it was still so fresh in my mind.

It's funny, I was not particularly emotional during this session, I was excited, but not overly emotional.  At one point Domalicious told me how she loved Master, that hurt a little, and spiked a bit of jealousy, but I was all good with that and with them making love.  Now as I type this I almost feel like crying, not from bad or negative emotions, but from happiness.

I realize now I was in subspace during this, I am starting to come out of it now so the emotions are kicking in.  They are really, really good emotions though.  I really feel like I belong to Master and Domalicious, that I need to be their sub, and oh God I so need to be allowed to lick Master's cum from her pussy and I hope someday from her ass.

Very intense emtions right now, I just wish that I could spend every minute of everyday serving Master and Domalicious, too bad things like jobs, mortgage payments, etc get in the way of the best things in life.

worthless sub

Master has directed that I come her and post about why I am a worthless sub (which is Master's name for me).  I am a worthless sub because although I have a penis and balls they are not very useful.  Domalicious named my penis pinky, because it is so small and pink.  While pinky is smaller than average for a penis, it would still be large enough to give Domalicious pleasure if I could just control it.

My endurance is the real problem, and the real reason that I cannot please Domalicious with pinky.  I can usually not last even a full minute before I will have to stop to keep from cumming when I am allowed to have sex with her.  There are times when I cannot even last fifteen seconds after entering Master's pussy.  I will have to stop and hold very still, Domalicious cannot move either, or I will cum.  Sex with me is a lot of stop and go for Domalicious, and is probably not very pleasurable for her, certainly not like having sex with a real man like Master.

These are the reasons that I am a worthless sub and why Domalicious needs a real man like Master to pleasure her and fulfill her needs.  I am helping to groom and prepare her tonight for a date tomorrow with Master.  I am so excited that she will be pleasured by Master, and I hope that I will be allowed to worship Master's pussy afterward and to taste his presence there.