More changes

Just a quick update.  Master and Domalicious' relationship has changed somewhat, they are still discussing what changes are going to take place, and what their new relationship will look like.  I really don't have any details just yet,  other than they are still together, Master still owns Domalicious.  I am not sure what my status is right now, but I believe that I am not owned by Master currently and that Domalicious has total control over me (along with AlphaDomme of course).

I will try to update here as things become more clear.

Feeling well.

My heart and head are finally catching up with all the changes over the past week.  I am getting a much better handle on my emotions.  I am comfortable now, I am getting to know Master better, and getting things straight in my head.  Yesterday and today I have not had any worries, and have been able to just enjoy the ride.

It is fun and exciting.  I love seeing Domalicious so happy, and seeing her experience being a sub first hand is so much fun for me.  It's all incredibly hot and erotic for me as well.  I love the control that Master has taken in our relationship even though it tortures me at times.  Not being able to kiss, or touch Domalicious without his permission is driving me crazy, I desire her so much, and it is so exciting for a masochist like me to be denied that physical access to my wife.  At the same time I need to say that Master has been generous and has not taken the denial to a point that it is more than either Domalicious or I can handle.

Of course I know that Master will be increasing his control over us, but I am comfortable now that Master will not push us too far too fast.  I believe he will push our limits, but my trust in him is growing and now I truly do feel comfortable and safe as his sub.

I was punished last night for having cum without permission a couple nights back.  Domalicious used the dressage whip and the quirt pictured below on me.

It was a fairly intense punishment whipping, there was no warm up, and it definitely got my attention.  It was also something I really needed, it was cathartic beside being punishing.  I can still feel the fire of the dressage whip on my back.  Thank you Master and Miss for this punishment.

Master was generous and allowed me to touch Domalicous last night.  We cuddled, and I rubbed and kissed her back.  Master had said that Domalicous could have intercourse with me if she wished.  It was her choice and she chose not to.  I am glad she made the choice she did, I think that both of us are truly beginning to love the fact that Master owns her body and to believe that it should be reserved for his pleasure.

I am still experiencing some very intense emotional moments, but yesterday and today, those moments have all been positive.  I am very happy and content right now.

Domalicious is home

Domalicious is home now, her time with Master seems to have gone very well.  Master told me that I should be very proud of her, and I am soooo proud of her.  She has always been such a strong wife and Domme for me, and I know that she will be a strong sub for Master.

I did have a difficult time yesterday when I picked Domalicious up.  Master had directed that I was not allowed to touch, hug, or kiss her until the evening.  I was feeling a bit fragile, and really needed a hug, but I made it through and Domalicous held me and made me feel so much better last night once we were allowed to touch one another.

When he found out that I had been struggling with my feelings Master was very generous and allowed me to have intercourse with Domalicious last night.  I am very grateful to him for that, it felt so wonderful to be inside her.  I was reminded that she, her pussy, and all her holes do belong to him, and that I was only being allowed into his pussy through his generosity, and I truly am grateful to him for that.  I wasn't able to do much more than just enter her, I was so worked up that I almost came just being inside her, but it still felt so good to be there, and to be a part of her, I needed that closeness.  Knowing that I was in Master's property just heightened the excitement for me.

I am finding this new relationship to be a real emotional roller coaster for me.  We have been involved in many cuckold relationships before, but the dynamic is so much different this time that it is raising many new feelings for me.  I am euphoric at times, and scared at times.  The euphoric times far out number the scary times, but both are very powerful.

I see Domalicious developing such strong feelings for Master, and I understand how powerful the feelings a sub has for her/his Dominant can be.  That is what is scary for me.  In all the previous cuckold relationships we have experienced I was never concerned that Domalicious' feelings for her partner would rival the feelings that she has for me.  In this situation I am not so sure.  I can see the possibility for her developing feelings for Master that are as strong as the feelings that she has for me.

 This possibility is what I have been struggling with most since Domalicious first met Master.  I am dealing with things much better now.  I had a talk with Domalicious about this, and she reassured me.  I also remembered a conversation I once had with a Domme and her sub/husband about this very subject.

To make a long story short, her husband had struggled with the same concerns when they had entered a somewhat similar cuckolding situation (she was not the "bull's" sub though) with a man that she developed very strong feelings for.  What she explained to me was that just because she loved her "real man" as much as her sub did not mean she loved the sub any less than she had before the bull came into the relationship, or that she would ever let her sub go.

She told me that she loved her sub and the other man in different ways and that her sub was her forever sub, the love of her life, and she would never let him go.  She also said that it was really hard to say that she loved the bull as much as the sub, or vice versa.  She said that the love was different, and asked "how does one measure love anyway."

I discussed this with Domalicious last night, and she reassured me that this is the kind of place that I hold in her heart and that she will never let me go either.  She told me that she has talked with Master about this and that Master would never try to separate us, and that she was very clear with him that I will always be her subhub.  With the trust I have in Domalicious I feel much better after the talk we had last night.

poor pinky

I was feeling so horny this morning.  I awoke humping against the mattress, pinky would so love to be allowed inside Domalicious' pussy.  Her pussy belongs to Master now though, and for that matter so does pinky.  It is such a turn on to me to be denied that pleasure and honor.  I do consider being allowed inside Domalicious an honor, and I have always thanked her when she allowed me to enter her.  Now her pussy belongs to Master and even if she wants to have pinky inside her she cannot without his permission.  Domalicious and I are both experiencing denial now, and it is such a turn on.

I had a difficult time falling asleep last night.  Domalicous called me and told me about her experience with Master, she thought it was wonderful, and I am so happy for her.  It didn't make it easy to sleep though, with thoughts of Master flogging and fucking her running through my mind.  Domalicious told me last night that I was not allowed to touch pinky, that made it even more difficult to fall asleep, no wife beside me to stroke, and no permission to stroke pinky.

Fortunately, once I was able to fall asleep, I slept well until my fantasies awakened me this morning.

Been a wild couple of days.

A warning before you read on, this post may ramble, change direction without warning, or otherwise be difficult to follow.  The last couple of days have seen so many changes for Domalicious and I.  My brain and heart are still playing catch up.  It is all so new I have not got a real handle on it all yet.  That is partly why I am writing this post, to try to help me get a better handle on all these changes, so I apologize if it ends up being difficult to follow.

I got home a short time ago after taking Domalicious into the city to meet Master.  They will be sharing a hotel, spending time getting to know one another better and of course Domalicious will get her first experience serving Master in person.  Master has said that I will not be allowed to participate in their first several meetings as they get to know one another and establish their relationship.  I am excited for Domalicous, and a bit nervous as well, I hope that it will all work out and that she will be okay.

I am not worried about her being unsafe with Master (well, okay I am just a tiny bit as I always am when she first spends alone time with a new guy), but I am worried that things will move to fast, that she may be overwhelmed, that the sub experience may be emotionally overwhelming for her.  From what I have seen of Master I think that he will train her carefully and not give her more than she can handle, but as a sub I know how powerful those emotions can be.  Domalicious is already experiencing how strong those  emotions can be, she is already developing very strong feelings for Master.  I am so in love with Domalicious and I just do not want to see her hurt.

Things are evolving very quickly, which I think is okay, it all feels right, but it is a bit scary too.  I am so thrilled to see my wife/owner so happy, she is on cloud nine when she is serving Master.  D/s relationships do seem to move faster than vanilla relationships, I suppose due to the way we must open ourselves up in a D/s situation, we get to know each other so intimately so much sooner.  I just hope that it does not turn bad suddenly.  I trust Domalicous and her judgement in these matters, and we have been discussing it a lot.  I think that one thing we both feel strongly about is that, even if things do not work out in the end, this has already been an amazing experience.

I do believe that things will work out.  I just have a feeling that all is right.  As I said I trust Domalicious, she is a good judge of people and she seems to be very comfortable with Master. I have been allowed access to some of their chats as well and he truly seems like a quality, honorable man.

Something else that is a bit scary to me in this situation is that I am not allowed to know much of what is going on between them.  This is something new, as in all her previous relationships Domalicious would allow and even encourage me to read her chats, emails, etc.  To be kept in the dark is a bit scary, but I think I understand the need.  They need to work on their relationship first and get it established before placing me in the mix.  I am sure there is much for them to figure out together as this is the first time Domalicious has submitted to anyone, everything is new to her as well and she does not need to be trying to figure out how to deal with me right now.  She needs to be concentrating on finding her place as Master's sub.  Did I mentions this was complicated?

As I said earlier I truly love Domalicious and I do not want to see her hurt.  The thing is that if this relationship continues there will be times when she will be hurt, and I will have to deal with it.  I don't mean hurt in the physical sense, I know that she will experience physical pain at the hands of Master but I do not believe that Master would purposely injure her or give her more pain than he thinks she can handle even as punishment. I am worried about her being hurt emotionally.  I am going to have to understand that they have a relationship with each other, respect that, and understand my role in the relationship as a whole.  I want to be there to comfort her, but I am not really going to be in a position to interfere with her relationship with her Dom.    I mean they are both Dominant over me, I just don't know how this will all play out.  She is Masters sub and has chosen to give herself to him, I cannot interfere with that.  I am truly beginning to understand what it means to be a sub, a real sub and to truly give up power.  Will there be times when I cannot be my wife's protector out of respect for her relationship with Master?  There is so much to think about here, and I think so much more to learn about myself, and my wife.

Although she is my wife and I her husband will I still be her primary?  I suppose not, which is scary as hell for me.  I mean I don't think I will ever lose her, but this is just so different from the poly relationships we have had in the past. She always had control in the past, she was always the Alpha.  Now Master is the Alpha.

I think I have just had an epiphany,  it is now about trusting Domalicious and in time it will be about truly trusting Master.  I think that is what is worrying me so much right now, I don't know Master well enough now, but Domalicious does, and she trusts him.  I trust Domalicious and have given myself completely to her, so I will follow her and continue to place my trust in her.  I am sure as I get to know Master better that I will grow to trust him as she does as well.  In the meantime I must be patient and trust in my owner.

I thought about removing some of the above post after realizing what the problem I was experiencing really was, but I think it is important that I let it stand.  I do apologize to Domalicious, and to Master for my lack of trust, I think it is just that so much has happened so quickly that I kind of lost track of that most important part of my submission.

Well, as I was working through the above Domalicious came on chat, and we talked for awhile.  She said that everything was going extremely well and that she was very happy!  I am so relieved!

Since this relationship is still in it's infancy there is much I do not yet know as far as how the dynamics will actually work, but I know now I just need to be patient and allow it to develop with Master's and Domalicious' guidance.  It is a bit scary to be in the dark about so much, but I think I have a better understanding of that now.

Some fun last night.

Master has directed me to post here about the time I was allowed to be involved with he and Domalicious last night, I hope my post will please him.  I am afraid that I may leave something(s) out as it was all so emotionally and sexually charged that my head was spinning by the time he sent me off to sleep and some of last night seems a bit of a blur (in a good way).

Master and Domalicious had spent much of the day yesterday chatting online and on the phone, I was not really involved in any play until the evening, so I will begin then.

Domalicious called me into her room and told me that Master had ordered her to send him a picture of her breasts, I was to take the picture.  I took the picture and she sent it to Master, who seemed pleased and commented on how much he was going to enjoy playing with her breasts and placing them in bondage.  Master then ordered Domalicious to squeeze my cock and balls "fucking hard" and to remind me that he owns her, that she is his slut,  that her pussy and all her holes belong to him.  Domalicious did so, squeezing until I could not help but cry out from the pain, I was then sent to stand in the corner while they chatted some more.

A while later, I have no idea how much time had passed, Domalicious had me return to the bed and sit next to her.  She grabbed my pinky and balls again and began squeezing them as she showed me a picture of Master's cock and balls and told me that "This is what a real man's cock looks like."   She continued to squeeze telling me that it was the cock that would be fucking her pussy and ass and that she would be sucking from now on.  I was so excited at the humiliation I was experiencing and at seeing the lust that Domalicious has for Masters wonderful cock.  I was then sent back to the corner with orders to think about Master's cock and how he would be using it on my wife.

More time passed as I stood in the corner, I coiuld hear Domalicious occasionally giggle, moan now and then, and there was even an "Oh my God!" or two thrown in there.  After a while I heard her get up from the bed, she came up behind me, and told me that Master was pissed that we lived so far away and that he could not be with his slut tonight.  She told me that Master had directed her to punish me for this, and that I was to assume the position so that she could whip me.  I forgot to mention earlier that Master had Domalicious send him a link to this blog, and that he had seen the picture of the black and purple whip that Domalicious uses on me.

That was the whip that he chose for her to punish me with, at least  I think it was I didn't actually see the whip, but it felt like this one.  She told me that this was punishment and there would be no warm up.  She then gave me four hard lashes with the whip.  Domalicous returned to the bed, and her conversation with Master while I remained in the corner.

It seemed like I was left in the corner quite a while this time, but it is hard to judge the passage of time when you are in that situation so I really don't know how long it had been when Domalicious called me back to the bed.  She showed me the chat window that she had open for her chat with Master and I saw that he had said I was allowed to finger her and use the glass dildo on her.  He said that he was pleased with the way I had quickly completed some tasks he and Domalicious had given me earlier in the day.

Domalicious got on her hands and knees, with her bottom up and I began to finger her.  She was so incredibly wet and hot.  I inserted two fingers and began fucking and working her pussy, gently at first but just for a moment since she was already so hot, and then began fucking her hard with my fingers.  She was reminding me that she is Master's slut, that she belongs to him, that it was his pussy that I was fingering.  I began using the glass dildo on her, soon had her on the verge of orgasm.  She told me to stop, I didn't understand why, but then the phone rang.  Master wanted to listen to her orgasm.

She picked up the phone and said hello to Master, and asked him if I could begin fucking her again.  I began with my fingers, and soon she told me to use the dildo again.  As I fucked her with the dildo she was moaning, and gasping, and telling Master that she was his property, telling him how much she wanted his cock, and to be with him.  She rolled onto her back and continued to talk to Master.  Her foot found my pinky and she told Master how excited and hard I was, she asked him if she could kick my balls as I fucked her for him.  I couldn't hear but Master must have said yes as she began to kick my balls and pinky.  She would rub pinky with her foot and then stomp on my balls.

It wasn't long before she asked Master for permission to cum.  She began an incredible orgasm, she was cumming and cumming like I have never seen her cum.  She was still rubbing pinky and stomping at my balls, and I got so excited I just lost it, began to cum myself.  I unfortunately did not have permission to cum.  Domalicous had orgasm after orgasm, I continued to fuck her for Master with the dildo.  I would slow and gentle the fucking as she began to come down from one orgasm, but then suddenly ramp it up sending her into another.  Domalicious had three or four orgasms, none of us, including her, were sure just how many she actually had.

I of course was (am) in trouble for having cum without permission, I licked my cum from Domalicious' foot, and from myself.  I then cleaned up the dildo and Master told me to go to sleep while he and Domalicious talked more.

This was a wonderful session, I think we all enjoyed it very much.  Even though I came I was still incredibly horny.  Master said that I could sleep in bed with Domalicious but we were not allowed to kiss or touch each other the rest of the night.  I think this drove us both a bit crazy, as we love to cuddle at night, and I usually rub her back to help her fall asleep.  I found myself waking several times during the night, and had to keep reminding myself that I was not allowed to touch Domalicious.  I was so restless during the night, fantasizing about serving Master and Domalicious.

I was so happy this morning when we awoke and Domalicious said that we were allowed to kiss.

An interesting turn of events.

The times they are a changing, and perhaps so is the direction of this Blog at least somewhat.  Domalicious recently decided to look for a new guy, and she has found one.  The interesting thing is that the new man in her life is a Dom.  He is now her, and my, Master.

Domalicious had told me before that she thought she may be a switch, and she had even played around a bit "subbing" to one of her guys who was a switch himself, though she always directed the action. it was always just a role play situation.  Oh, how things have changed in the last couple of days.

She met our Master online and began chatting with him, they really hit it off, and so last night they met in person. They seem to have very good chemistry, and Domalicious is very excited by all of this.  She seems to be really getting into being Master's sub.  I am as well I must admit.

Domalicious and Master spent a couple of hours together last night, I briefly met him, but they apparently were both very pleased with their meeting.  The chemistry was so right, and they felt so good about each other that Master has already taken ownership of her.  They have been chatting a great deal online since then, as well as speaking on the phone, and the relationship is taking shape and evolving quickly.

Domalicious now belongs  to Master, I belong to them both.  Domalicous' body is Master's, I have no rights to it.  As I understand it I will probably not be allowed to have intercourse with Domalicous anymore.  If Master approves I may be allowed to touch her and to worship her orally.  She is now Master's plaything, he may direct her, use her, and punish her as he pleases.

Adendum 02/12/12:  Master wished me to be more specific regarding his ownership of Domalicious' body and to clarify that her pussy and all her holes belong to him now.  

This is very exciting to both Domalicous and I, she is discovering a side of herself that she really did not recognize before.  I am finding it incredibly erotic, as well as interesting and sometimes amusing.  I love watching as Domalicous takes her first steps on the journey of submission.  It it exciting to see how it thrills her, it is amusing to watch her confronted with situations that put a sub on the spot, just like I have dealt with for years as her sub, and see her deal with them.

As for me; well I am so excited and turned on by all this that I have been able to think of little else for the past 24 hours.  I could hardly sleep last night, and have spent much of today with pinky erect as I thought and fantasized about my new role as the sub of a sub.  There is so much fodder for fantasizing in this situation I find myself in, I will have to be careful that I do not get lost in fantasy land.