Some fun last night.

Master has directed me to post here about the time I was allowed to be involved with he and Domalicious last night, I hope my post will please him.  I am afraid that I may leave something(s) out as it was all so emotionally and sexually charged that my head was spinning by the time he sent me off to sleep and some of last night seems a bit of a blur (in a good way).

Master and Domalicious had spent much of the day yesterday chatting online and on the phone, I was not really involved in any play until the evening, so I will begin then.

Domalicious called me into her room and told me that Master had ordered her to send him a picture of her breasts, I was to take the picture.  I took the picture and she sent it to Master, who seemed pleased and commented on how much he was going to enjoy playing with her breasts and placing them in bondage.  Master then ordered Domalicious to squeeze my cock and balls "fucking hard" and to remind me that he owns her, that she is his slut,  that her pussy and all her holes belong to him.  Domalicious did so, squeezing until I could not help but cry out from the pain, I was then sent to stand in the corner while they chatted some more.

A while later, I have no idea how much time had passed, Domalicious had me return to the bed and sit next to her.  She grabbed my pinky and balls again and began squeezing them as she showed me a picture of Master's cock and balls and told me that "This is what a real man's cock looks like."   She continued to squeeze telling me that it was the cock that would be fucking her pussy and ass and that she would be sucking from now on.  I was so excited at the humiliation I was experiencing and at seeing the lust that Domalicious has for Masters wonderful cock.  I was then sent back to the corner with orders to think about Master's cock and how he would be using it on my wife.

More time passed as I stood in the corner, I coiuld hear Domalicious occasionally giggle, moan now and then, and there was even an "Oh my God!" or two thrown in there.  After a while I heard her get up from the bed, she came up behind me, and told me that Master was pissed that we lived so far away and that he could not be with his slut tonight.  She told me that Master had directed her to punish me for this, and that I was to assume the position so that she could whip me.  I forgot to mention earlier that Master had Domalicious send him a link to this blog, and that he had seen the picture of the black and purple whip that Domalicious uses on me.

That was the whip that he chose for her to punish me with, at least  I think it was I didn't actually see the whip, but it felt like this one.  She told me that this was punishment and there would be no warm up.  She then gave me four hard lashes with the whip.  Domalicous returned to the bed, and her conversation with Master while I remained in the corner.

It seemed like I was left in the corner quite a while this time, but it is hard to judge the passage of time when you are in that situation so I really don't know how long it had been when Domalicious called me back to the bed.  She showed me the chat window that she had open for her chat with Master and I saw that he had said I was allowed to finger her and use the glass dildo on her.  He said that he was pleased with the way I had quickly completed some tasks he and Domalicious had given me earlier in the day.

Domalicious got on her hands and knees, with her bottom up and I began to finger her.  She was so incredibly wet and hot.  I inserted two fingers and began fucking and working her pussy, gently at first but just for a moment since she was already so hot, and then began fucking her hard with my fingers.  She was reminding me that she is Master's slut, that she belongs to him, that it was his pussy that I was fingering.  I began using the glass dildo on her, soon had her on the verge of orgasm.  She told me to stop, I didn't understand why, but then the phone rang.  Master wanted to listen to her orgasm.

She picked up the phone and said hello to Master, and asked him if I could begin fucking her again.  I began with my fingers, and soon she told me to use the dildo again.  As I fucked her with the dildo she was moaning, and gasping, and telling Master that she was his property, telling him how much she wanted his cock, and to be with him.  She rolled onto her back and continued to talk to Master.  Her foot found my pinky and she told Master how excited and hard I was, she asked him if she could kick my balls as I fucked her for him.  I couldn't hear but Master must have said yes as she began to kick my balls and pinky.  She would rub pinky with her foot and then stomp on my balls.

It wasn't long before she asked Master for permission to cum.  She began an incredible orgasm, she was cumming and cumming like I have never seen her cum.  She was still rubbing pinky and stomping at my balls, and I got so excited I just lost it, began to cum myself.  I unfortunately did not have permission to cum.  Domalicous had orgasm after orgasm, I continued to fuck her for Master with the dildo.  I would slow and gentle the fucking as she began to come down from one orgasm, but then suddenly ramp it up sending her into another.  Domalicious had three or four orgasms, none of us, including her, were sure just how many she actually had.

I of course was (am) in trouble for having cum without permission, I licked my cum from Domalicious' foot, and from myself.  I then cleaned up the dildo and Master told me to go to sleep while he and Domalicious talked more.

This was a wonderful session, I think we all enjoyed it very much.  Even though I came I was still incredibly horny.  Master said that I could sleep in bed with Domalicious but we were not allowed to kiss or touch each other the rest of the night.  I think this drove us both a bit crazy, as we love to cuddle at night, and I usually rub her back to help her fall asleep.  I found myself waking several times during the night, and had to keep reminding myself that I was not allowed to touch Domalicious.  I was so restless during the night, fantasizing about serving Master and Domalicious.

I was so happy this morning when we awoke and Domalicious said that we were allowed to kiss.

An interesting turn of events.

The times they are a changing, and perhaps so is the direction of this Blog at least somewhat.  Domalicious recently decided to look for a new guy, and she has found one.  The interesting thing is that the new man in her life is a Dom.  He is now her, and my, Master.

Domalicious had told me before that she thought she may be a switch, and she had even played around a bit "subbing" to one of her guys who was a switch himself, though she always directed the action. it was always just a role play situation.  Oh, how things have changed in the last couple of days.

She met our Master online and began chatting with him, they really hit it off, and so last night they met in person. They seem to have very good chemistry, and Domalicious is very excited by all of this.  She seems to be really getting into being Master's sub.  I am as well I must admit.

Domalicious and Master spent a couple of hours together last night, I briefly met him, but they apparently were both very pleased with their meeting.  The chemistry was so right, and they felt so good about each other that Master has already taken ownership of her.  They have been chatting a great deal online since then, as well as speaking on the phone, and the relationship is taking shape and evolving quickly.

Domalicious now belongs  to Master, I belong to them both.  Domalicous' body is Master's, I have no rights to it.  As I understand it I will probably not be allowed to have intercourse with Domalicous anymore.  If Master approves I may be allowed to touch her and to worship her orally.  She is now Master's plaything, he may direct her, use her, and punish her as he pleases.

Adendum 02/12/12:  Master wished me to be more specific regarding his ownership of Domalicious' body and to clarify that her pussy and all her holes belong to him now.  

This is very exciting to both Domalicous and I, she is discovering a side of herself that she really did not recognize before.  I am finding it incredibly erotic, as well as interesting and sometimes amusing.  I love watching as Domalicous takes her first steps on the journey of submission.  It it exciting to see how it thrills her, it is amusing to watch her confronted with situations that put a sub on the spot, just like I have dealt with for years as her sub, and see her deal with them.

As for me; well I am so excited and turned on by all this that I have been able to think of little else for the past 24 hours.  I could hardly sleep last night, and have spent much of today with pinky erect as I thought and fantasized about my new role as the sub of a sub.  There is so much fodder for fantasizing in this situation I find myself in, I will have to be careful that I do not get lost in fantasy land.

An FLR computer game

A member of the At Her Feet Forum posted a link there to this game, it is a crack up!

Recently I brought up, with Domalicious, my desire for certain activities that I feel help me to stay in a more submissive state of mind.  Domalicious wanted me to write about that, so here goes.

As I posted on the Men Submit forum recently, I am convinced that there is a chemical/hormonal component to submissiveness.  I believe that certain things will trigger the release of something in a subs system that causes them to feel more submissive.  I suppose that the triggers will vary from individual to individual.  For me, many kink and service activities cause me to feel more submissive.  

Without going into details, Domalicious and I have been in a life situation in which we have not been able to engage in as many play/kink sessions as we would like.  At times I found myself struggling to be the subhub I feel Domalicious deserves because I was just not feeling that submissive.  I still had my desire to serve and care for her, but I didn't always have that lovely submissive desire to grovel at her feet.  I wanted to get that desire back.  As I wrote in my previous blog, Domalicious recently decided to take our D/s relationship to the next level and I felt that it would be a real struggle for me if I was not able to capture and maintain that strong submissive desire.  Since Domalicious is often not feeling up to engaging in play recently I felt that I needed to find ways to increase my submissive desires that would not over-tax her.

I was nervous about approaching Domalicious regarding this.  I know that most women, Domalicious included, tend to think that men are often too much about the kink and fantasy D/s aspects of a FLR, that we make it too much about us and not enough about the female.  While I understand this point of view (and agree with it often), I sometimes think that women do not fully understand how necessary it is that we subs are in the proper state of mind, or the value of our fantasies/kinks in getting us into that state.  Again, I think that there is a chemical component to this.  We men do have a propensity for overdoing our fantasies, but in this case I was not asking for some outlandish fantasy, instead I wanted to try to incorporate some kink actions into my everyday activities that I hoped would help trigger and strengthen my submissive desires.

When Domalicious told me that she was taking our relationship to the next level she presented me with a list of duties and rules that I would be expected to carry out and follow.  She told me that I was to edit and add to the list, then present it to her for approval.  What I hoped to do was to add a strong submissive/sexual aspect to certain of these duties in the hope that it would trigger the feelings I was hoping to achieve.  For example one of my duties is to make the bed each morning, I asked that it be a requirement that I am nude and wearing nipple clamps while I do this.  This doesn't require any effort on Domalicious' part, yet it adds a strong sexual aspect to what would otherwise be a mundane chore.  We now have a few activities where I have similar requirements, and it does seem to be working.  I look forward to these chores even (perhaps especially) when I am feeling stressed or overwhelmed.  I find it helps me relax and to feel more like the submissive husband I want to be.

We have also begun a bedtime ritual that I have found helpful.  We used to play almost every night, but now Domalicious is not always up for play.  She is often too tired, and just wishes to read, or spend a little time on the computer before going to sleep.  This was rather difficult for me, I missed the stimulation of our play each night.  I asked Domalicious if she would be willing to allow me to take matters into my own hand a bit as we were going to bed.  One of my new duties is to write in a journal, that Domalicious presented me with, each night.  I now wear nipple clamps as I write my entry.  Also, if Domalicious is not going to be up for play that night, I am allowed to keep the nipple clamps on and masturbate (without ejaculating) while she is doing her thing.  She will occasionally give the nipple clamps a tug, or tease me a bit while I am stroking.  This requires minimal effort on her part.  There are several aspects to this that help keep my sub desires primed, the pure sexual frustration from masturbating without climax, the pain from the nipple clamps as well as her tugs, slaps, etc. and there is a bit of a humiliation factor with masturbating while she watches and teases me.  I should add that I feel my first duties is to my wife.  I do not just go flop down in bed in the evening, put nipple clamps on, and start wanking.  I try to make sure that I have done everything I can to make Domalicious happy and content.  Only when it is time to wind down and relax before we go to sleep, when I have done my duty to my wife, do I take myself in hand and even then I realize that it is only with her permission, she is in charge.

So, this is what we are trying now, it seems to be working well.  These activities do seem to be helping me to maintain my submissive feelings and desire during a time that has been very stressful and overwhelming.

The next step

Domalicious has decided to take things up a notch in our FLR.  She has taken more control, and assigned me more duties.  I am quite excited about this, though I know it will be (and already has been) much more challenging.  So far it has been been great, I feel like I am more securely in my place.  


We have come up with a code so that when I begin to get out of line she can put me back in my place, even in public.  There are code words, each additional word letting me know that I have crossed the line even further, and so when I hear one or more of these words I know it is time to give her a "Yes Ma'am." and fall back in step with her.  I am hopeful that this will help me to be a better subhub for her.


I also have daily and weekly duties now.  It's not easy to keep up with all these, but I feel a great deal of satisfaction when I do please her with my efforts.


There has also been more physical punishment involved when I step out of line, which I appreciate as it seems to help motivate as much as correct me.


One of my daily duties is to keep a journal, detailing my feelings and thoughts, which Domalicious reads at her convenience.  This has already been a help to us, Domalicious has a much better idea of what is going on in my heart and head, since I often find it easier to write about, rather than talk about my feelings.


I will try to update occasionally as things progress.

Random thoughts from a feeble mind.

So here's the deal....Ms Exotic had been out of town for a couple of days....I am missing her....The weather is miserable, cold and windy so I don't feel up to doing anything outside....There is much I should be doing around the house, but honestly I just am not in the mood....So my mind has been rambling and I realized I haven't updated my blog for a while....Thus, I thought I might write some of these ramblings down and if they aren't too ridiculous (Ms Exotic will be the judge of that) post them.

Subsexual????  
Is submissiveness another form of sexuality?  There are heterosexuals, homosexuals, bisexuals, transsexuals,etc.  Why not subsexuals?  My submissiveness is such a huge part of my sexuality it really cannot be separated from it.  I would have sex with a man if my wife wished me to, in fact I would find it quite exciting.  Does that make me bisexual; or am I subsexual?  I have no desire to have sex with a man without my wife involved in some way, but throw a little D/s into the mix, with my wife being the "D", and I am quite excited by the prospect.  I am not sure why I have been thinking about this so much, since I am somewhat opposed to labels as a general rule, I must be really bored.

Is kink addictive?  
I suppose I could do a little research on this, there may have been studies looking into this, but I am feeling too lazy so I will just sit here and ponder.  From my own experience I think it may be.  In fact I may be experiencing a bit of "kink withdrawl" right now due to Ms Exotic's absence, perhaps that is the reason for these musings.  I would hate to return to a completely vanilla sex life, I do not think I would find it fulfilling now.  I think that Ms Exotic feels the same way, kink seems to have become quite important to her as well.  I suppose that, like a smoker, we could quit but we would always be desirous of another cigarette.

Domestic discipline keeping the submissive flame burning:  
I am sure that the importance of domestic discipline varies from couple to couple, but for me I think it is very important.  That submissive fire that burns inside me does ebb and flow.  At times it is a raging inferno, occasionally it is a tiny glowing spark.  When that flame begins to die down I need it fanned and one of the best ways to do that is through discipline.  Of course discipline is not the only way, but it is a lovely way as far as I am concerned.  Fortunately for me Ms Exotic fans my flame like no woman I have ever known, but still life gets in the way at times.  I fantasize about being in a life situation where Ms Exotic could paddle my behind whenever I stepped out of line.  Of course our life is not that way, but a sub can dream can't he?

Worshiping the Goddess keeping the Domme fires burning:  
This is as, or more, important as keeping those sub fires burning and something I am occasionally (okay maybe to often to just say occasionally) guilty of failing at.  I don't just mean oral worship, though that can certainly be a part of it, but I mean treating her like your queen.  I have often given men, who want to get their wives interested in a FLR, the advice to treat her like a queen and eventually she will begin to act like one.  Again life often gets in the way, but it is so important to treat our wives like queens, goddesses, and dommes, if that is what we wish them to be.

Well Ms Exotic will be home soon (hooray!) so I had better send this to her email for approval to post, and figure out what I am making for dinner.  

Life is good.

It has been a while since my last blog, I thought I should update things a bit.  Ms Exotic and I are are doing quite nicely, enjoying each other and the life we share.  We are still very busy, thus we have not been able to spend much time on Men Submit or other FLR sites recently.  I do check in often, but haven't had the time or energy to participate as much as I wish I could.  

I had a wonderful little play session with Ms Exotic last night, my God that woman can turn me inside out with just a word or a touch.  I really needed it last night too.  The holidays have been very hectic, wonderful but hectic, and then I had a very stressful evening.  It was such a relief to get home, get the few chores I had to do completed, and then just sit and unwind for a bit.  I was so tired when we went to bed, yet I had such desire to touch my wife, and to experience her touch.

I love the way she touches me, sometimes such gentle caresses, and sometimes blessing me with the pain I love to suffer for her.  I never know what is coming next, the loving caress will often turn into a loving swat.  She may run her fingers across my chest in such a soft gentle manner, and then suddenly grab my nipple twisting and pulling as if she will rip it from my chest.  There is always an air of suspense when she is touching me.  If she strokes pinky and my balls I never know if the gentle stroking will continue, stop abruptly, or if she will suddenly grab and squeeze my balls until I cry out in pain.  Our sex life is never boring.

She teased me so much last night, both with her touch and with her words, it was excrutiatingly wonderful.  

Having a partner who knows me so well is such a wonderful blessing.  I am able to share so much of myself with her, to offer myself to her so completely knowing that she will accept me.  This may be the most wonderful part of a FLR involving kink.  We both get so much from this relationship and share our love for one another in so many ways.  There was a recent post on the forums at Men Submit regarding love in BDSM relationships, to me the kink we share is just another way of expressing our love much like my service and devotion to her.  When she paddles or spanks me, subjects pinky and the boys to torture, or subjects me to tease and denial, it is all out of love.  I suppose this is very difficult for non-kink people to understand, but I feel her love in all these things, and I hope that she feels my love in my acceptance of the pain and frustration.